Inspiration beats Fear
Hmm -- I see that I have already begun my blog, and I have another task to mark off on my Task/Goal sheet. Will admit that as I am in such an extraordinarily difficult situation pure terror marks some of my days. Being here -- having finally taken that step -- helps.
Having read and learned as much as I could about this place before I walked in the doors, even that didn't prepare me for all the hard work everybody's done, and ALL THE GOODIES in here. If I weren't a woman in deep trouble I would be playing like a child in heaven -- school wasn't like this when I was a kid. I have literally been waiting for something like this -- something that would jibe with the inner me -- all my life.
But there's something about being under the gun, feeling threatened -- it can go either way, or in my case, both ways. Sometimes fear is a paralytic and leaves you just numbed out, envisioning what it will be like to live in my Ford Escape with Patrick and the cats.
Sometimes it is a great motivator, and when I am "in here" with all of you -- sounds crazy, but I trust that most of you will know what I mean -- when I am in here, with all the positivity and Marcus saying "focus, Julie" -- or some version of that like oh, "Julie -- focus!" (since I quoted him I am covering myself! It is so helpful -- you guys, seriously -- my husband and I have both been gob-smacked by evil banks and we took it hard.
So having gotten up from a 18 month battle with mental illness brought on by the stress of having my bank of 25 years steal what amounted to my life savings from me, plus the sweet, beautiful house I had just finished building and felt so proud of -- it's been a hard road back.
This place contributes to my sense of well-being. The buzz here, the fact that this is where you hear the new techniques being discussed, the mutual support, the kindness from people (seriously, Marcus, dude -- I know you are busy and I appreciate every sentence you have written to me, you and everybody), has been invaluable.
I have been basically out of commission for getting close to a few years -- no heat in the house, living in one bedroom, just close to giving up. But this place makes me feel a sense of support already, and also reminds me (kid in candy store analogy again) that I have to prioritize. Jennifer's stories also really inspire me. I love to write and feel article marketing is a good place for me as well as my rapidly expanding twitter following.
But folks, thanks for the love. I heard from a couple that has been through what I have, and their message was "NEVER GIVE UP" and that's what I'm getting here, that and every tool you could ever want (err, that link cloaker and I are not on friendly terms yet) -- and I am grateful. Thanks to all.
I've been disabled for a long time, as has my partner, who is a highly functional (sort of) autistic person and the most beautiful artist, oh god, exquisite. As much as I know I need to focus, I have so many things to accomplish that it is a little dizzying.
It's a good thing I love this laptop so much, and I have some time left. The banks are NOT being helpful to the average American. I just need to make an income, and I need to do it quickly.
All righty, enough of this -- back to work. Oh -- question for anyone who sees this -- where's the best place to put a blog? Mine is on blogspot, which I know is just sort of the first stop for people. Suggestions on where to import? If you want to check it out, it's http://adventureswithherbalife.blogspot.com.
And yes, let me get it out there -- I'm into Herbalife. I'll talk about this on the product recommendation place. I'm not looking for reps here, however after what that stuff has done for me physically I couldn't live with myself if I didn't have the nerve to stand up for it and say why. But not here and not now. Focus, Julie, focus.
Bye again!
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Julie, Keep a picture in your mind of how you want your life to be and forget about the rest.
Hey Julie, I'm glad you enjoy this place! It's very important to set goals on a daily basis and focus on them. there's a nice little free tool I found called www.teuxdeux.com, it's like an online to-do-list and because it's a cool tool, it just makes you want to put tasks on it lol.
Anyway, I feel sorry for what is happening to you at the moment and even though I'm doing ok, I'm very angry at this entire banking and financial system. Places like WA are important, internet is (for now) a place you can be free to start something, bu successful at it and finally make the banks listen to you or just kneel at your feet and apologize! lol. If there's anything I can do, please let me know. I build websites for people here and I was thinking while reading your post that if you needed a website built by me, I'll do it for free for you. I see you already have a blog which is cool (would be even cooler with some great pictures in it! ;) ) and as you're asking where you can export it I would say Wordpress! It's better (more professional) in my opinion than blogger.com. I wish you and Patrick and the cats the BEST! Everyone can succeed at this, YOU CAN! Start believing, focus on your goals, test things, change the things you do wrong and start smiling againg (although you already smile on every pics :). Friendly yours, Louise.