When The Storms Of Life Don't Cease. Why Me?
I want to be completely transparent in this post... My hope is that someone will be encouraged by knowing others are struggling in similar ways.
I have allowed myself to become stagnant in my duties here at WA, and even though I have been dealing with so many trials and situations, that are severely draining me in every way possible. I must own up to my own laziness and desire to quit... Well... not quit, but to be highly uninspired to give this my all.
I joined WA by stumbling across it on accident, when I was researching for a way to work from home. I'm a single Mom of 2 kids, which one right now I have had to ask to leave my home (16 yo son) due to years of rebellion and major issues. And being alone for 7 years, you tend to get weary and lacking motivation to improve your life. I was so tired of my job as a waitress, that upon many months of researching, I found WA.
I was elated to immediately become a premium member, and dive deep into the new-found world of affiliate marketing. Which I knew wasn't a get-rich-quick scheme, but if I did my due diligence and hard work, it would pay off for my children and I in the future. Then what happens? You know the rest.... Super motivated, until life starts to rear its ugly head again.... And your'e back to Netflix on the couch instead of doing the work that is required to succeed.
This is where I want to be transparent..... I lost my job mid October, and as a single Mom it was devastating. I work 2 jobs usually and was already doing Door Dash on the side, so I fell on that FT until I was able to find another job. Two weeks into the job search, I became very ill with the flu. Being never able to afford insurance, a trip to the doctor and tamiflu put me down greatly financially. In the midst of all of that, some great news came that I got hired for a position I really wanted at an ophthalmology office.
Of course life said that's not enough to knock her down.. Saturday my 6 yo daughter woke up extremely sick and now has the flu :'( And I received the great news 2 weeks ago that her insurance and other benefits were cut off due to me not sending in required documents, and it'll take 30-45 days to get the benefits back. That now has me worrying about food, doctor visits and the dentist. With a trip to the doctor for her and tamiflu, that put me down again to almost nothing!
As I was sitting on the couch today as she slept next to me, I started to do the things us humans do... Why me God? I am a believer in Jesus and have devoted my all to Him, and in my moment of weakness, I got angry at my life and trials. Everything that could hit us, has, and there are things that I won't mention here that have also happened but are too personal to reveal.
I haven't gotten onto WA in a month, and was debating in my mind to cancel my membership. I barely made the bills for November and family helped a little and I've exhausted all my resources, so I thought I would cancel, as it's going on my credit card monthly. Knowing I have stumbled upon something great here at WA, and that God lead me here, as an answer to my prayers of wanting to be my own boss and work from home.
So as I wallowed in my self-pity.. I sat there thinking of all that I've been going through and how bad it was, how unfair, how untimely, how devastating, how draining.... And then I was reminded by the Lord, that I must endure. Yes, being a single Mom with 2 jobs and no help sucks.. Yes, being tired after work and having to try to find time for God and now my website is extremely difficult.. Yes, being alone with no friends or a good family to fall back on really hurts.. Yes, life has always been hard for me... But.. How will anything ever change for us if I don't give it my all? The answer is.... Nothing.
So for those of you who are dealing with illness, deaths in the family, loneliness, issues at home, financial problems, debt, kids, bills, and the list goes on... And you are reading this right now... You must ask yourself this. Have you truly given it your all here at WA? If you know deep down you haven't, then I urge you to do what I had to. Pick yourself up by the boot straps, refocus yourself, change your thinking to positivism and get out of the negative, and persevere towards your goals!
Now if you've given your all and you know you have, then maybe this isn't for you. But I know I'm not the only one here dealing with major setbacks in life, while trying to push myself towards my dreams, goals and desires here at WA. So I'm not going to quit until I feel I have given this thing my all, my sweat, blood, time, tears, late nights, early mornings and many sacrifices to achieve what it is we are all here to do... Financial freedom!
Pull yourself out of the despair that the enemy of our souls wants you to stay entrapped in, and look up. We believe we are going through so much, when we know that there are others around the world that are in way dire situations than we are. We begin to think on nothing but the bad things that are happening to us, and the problem is this: we have lost focus of being grateful for the Blessings we have. To simplify: we lose faith.
If we can learn to divert our thoughts to being positive, even in the midst of great trials and sufferings, we will be able to see clearly and push through. This is a lesson I am enduring right now, and I wanted to share this with whomever might stumble upon this blog. Life might be really hard at times, but don't lose sight of it all. Get back in the fight and battle until the end! God hasn't let me come this far to fail now... It's all a test, and to get to the next level we must pass with flying colors.
We might not share the same beliefs, but what I do know is this... Stay motivated! Stay focused! Stay positive! Stay grateful! Stay believing! Stay humble! Stay in the Light!
God Bless you and may you find peace that surpasses all understanding.. Shalom.
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It's different for everyone. this is not to diminish what you are going through but I read this on a devotional calendar the other day.
Maybe you repeat it.
If someone says to you "life is tough" you could say "Compared to what?" I get down on myself a lot, (way too much when it comes to what I should be doing here at WA) and every time I see this quote it reminds me there is someone worse off than me and I pray.
You have been through the wringer but your still not ready to give up. You recognize that you are blessed by the One who gives us what we need day after day and never more than we can bear.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, soul, mind and body and He will give you the desires of your heart.
You are blessed. You are STRONG. Focus on HIm the perfector of your faith.
My heart reaches out to you, Randi. You're in my prayers.
Wayne
Wayne, my goodness you are right. Sometimes it's good to hear from someone else that we can do it and everything will be ok. I needed to hear exactly what you wrote, so I'm grateful to you for doing so :)
You never know what a kind word of encouragement can do for someone, so thank you! And another big thank you for taking the time to pray for me. I surely need it.
May the Lord Bless you greatly for your kindness and much prosperity to you in 2020.
Shalom,
Randi
You are so right Tim, just a little mustard seed size faith can move those mighty mountains in my way. God Bless you!
Randi
Great and very true to the heart post, Randi! You will be in my prayers. You seem like a tough person to me, and you know what they say--"when the going gets tough, the tough get going" Keep the faith you have, because you have it is why you WILL succeed!
Jeff
Jeff, thank you for your prayers.. We definitely need them.
Life has gotten to be very tough for me this year, and I usually never express any complaints over it.. But I know there has to be others on here experiencing similar trials, and I wanted to share my story so someone else might be encouraged through the midst of their storms too.
Thank you for reminding me to keep it going.. We all need a good kick in the butt every now and again.
Many blessings to you in 2020 and beyond :)
Randi
I have faith that you will power on through--like you know, and I do now--you are here for a reason in God's plan!
Jeff
Hey Randi,
I’m sorry to hear about your trial and tribulations of recent. But these set backs are a set up for greater things.
You didn’t stumble upon WA by accident. It’s because I applied what they teach to get you here. So it does work. But one has to be consistent with the effort and follow the advice and training here to get there.
I applaud that you haven’t given up. Because that is the easiest thing to do when things get tough. But I have found if you fight through the pain and put in the effort things will work in your benefit. So I pray that happens for you.
Thank you Eddy! I sure am glad that you did your due diligence and made the site I stumbled upon to bring me here to this great community and school of learning.
I am not a quitter, I never have been. I just wasn't motivated enough to get up and do what it requires to make all of this work. I feel it's so important to show mercy, grace, compassion and understanding to the trials and situations others are facing. We don't know what someone is truly dealing with, so we must encourage and edify each other along the way.
I know God put you and WA in my path, that's why I haven't cancelled my membership. I am only one person, and doing it all alone for so long really puts one in a state of dreary. But I'm learning to look to the blessings I do have, stay positive and staying focused on all the good in my life, to overcome the obstacles I'm facing.
I can't leave this place until I know I've given it my all... And that I haven't done by far. I'm here to stay, because the world needs what I have to contribute to it! 2020 will be a year of productivity and dedication for me :)
Thank you for your encouragement and prayers, I need them so much! Blessings!
Randi
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Hi Randi,
Life does have a way of throwing us curve balls when least expect it.
Just remember that the lord will not put on us more than we can handle. We must have the patience of Job.
I think you've got it right. Be thankful, be positive, and focus on the vision of your life the way you want it to be. Never focus on lack.
Anything worthwhile takes time to achieve. Take action on what you learn and make it a habit to work your business daily.
2020 is going to be great!
Cheers,
Michael
Thank you Michael :) I for sure need to fix my mind on the way I'm wanting my life to be, and not on the lack that I have.
Have a Blessed holiday season!
Randi