Could this be where my success begins.

byHolsz633

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5 years ago

As a little girl I dreamt of nothing more than a beautiful house with a pool, walk in closets and a happy family. I didnt really ever dream of a particular career. I wanted to be a mother with the means to give my kids stability, money for school trips and pictures. I dreamt my kids would be able to dream big. Bigger than I could. The world would be at their fingertips like I never felt it was for me.

I got older quicker than I expected and made every bad decision a half way decent person can make until I had my first and only child at 28. I have only ever worked in restaurants and similar type places since I detassled corn as a preteen. Now I work two days a week, and it took some trial and error to find a job I could stand to leave my son for even for such little time. I only ever dreamt of being a mother and now that I am I have to be the mother I wanted to be. The mother I wanted/want to be would try new things and never give up on success.

I find myself here and going through the motions and I am already excited about the possibilities.

Anything I have ever done worth wild has been done by going through the motions almost unconsciously. Id decide I wanted to do something or pursue a certain job...and for one out of a 100 times I have a plan, Id actually be doing what it took for it. Before I know it there is only one more step and then I feel its real and possible. Always looking back Id realize Id done it all out of pure belief that it was ubtainable and I wanted it so when it was time to do what it took I knew that it had to be done. The problem is only one out of a hundred (honestly probably less) times I dont believe its possible. Im skeptical with less than average self esteem. So again here I am..just going through the motions.