Bottle It Up Or Not?
My mind is in turmoil! Why? I have no idea. After three very restless nights, I am fighting the sleep during the day routine to try to get back to a normal sleep pattern. Whatever that is!
Like many people I get the odd sleepless night but this week I am going for my personal best, or should that be worst, record of 3 sleep deprived nights. A consequence of this my mind is all over the place. My character is slowly changing to one of morbidity and depression. Still, I fight on.
Why am I telling you all this? Because while it may help others in the community when they realize they are not alone, I have found over the years that it does help me. I used to be shy and reserved and keep my personal feelings to myself until I started to talk about it. Suddenly I started feeling better, especially when I realized from the comments I was getting that I was not the only one.
Sometimes we look upon depressive issues as a weakness rather than an illness. Because we don't want to look weak or let others know that we are weak when indeed we can get professional help.
Being in what can be considered as my twilight years I can recognize the signs in time to attempt to stop the depression from taking hold. Yes, I am lucky in so much as I can recognize the signs early enough to try to turn the tide that is against me. True I would like to be able to recognize them a lot earlier in the process but I don't so I have to flow with the tide, but take small and determined steps against it.
This is not the first time I have broached this subject on here and I doubt that it will be the last either. I am naturally an anxious person and I am constantly fighting the anxiety and winning little battles but as yet not winning the war.
If you can see yourself in any of this please, please talk to someone even if it is only on here. There is help available for you both from me, (I've been there), and from others. Speak to your doctor and let them decide what is best for you.
Derek Barrington
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I can see that this community would help someone not feel like they were the only ones alive that felt the way they do. The community is HUGE and people are all over the world. You're bound to relate to someone else. I love that about WA!!!
It must be something in the air with the sleepless nights though then fighting during the day. I think I finally have it conquered and hope you do too.
~Debbi
This is a topic that more people tend to avoid rather than to share. I am grateful for your willingness to share your personal insights. Thank you for being a light for others.
its true and just knowing someone would listen to you will be able to help you go back to your true self and purpose.
I rarely get depressed and then only because of some real bad experience like losing a loved one. I guess I'm lucky in that way but it's something that I never think about and the it's a serious problem for some people.
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Oh definitely do not bottle it up!! I found that if I hold it in the more depressed I become. Sharing your feelings (which is very hard for a lot of us men, although the stigma is not as strong as it once was. Men are opening up more) - what you're going through certainly does help. Keeping it in can cause various illnesses within the body.
I agree David.
Derek