I am a Failure.
I am a Failure...
I am Failing, so that makes me a failure... At least that is what I have been telling myself for the last several months. Until today... That all stops!!!
I have been comparing myself to everyone else's accomplishments, but not sitting back and looking at my own accomplishments that I make on a daily basis.
All to often we compare our selves to someone else, and lose sight of what is really important. We all go through many different things, and here recently we have all been facing some of the same struggles; regardless of what country we are from. Some countries are handling it better than others, and some well there is some major concern. But I am not a political person and unless I absolutely have to I won't speak on the matter. And well right now I don't have to so I won't!!
But what I will speak on is my accomplishments, and your accomplishments and how we all portray ourselves when it comes to those accomplishments.
Everyday I go to work, just like most of you... I work third shift 10 hour shifts. I get off and tend to my beautiful daughter, I sleep for a couple of hours, get up and tend to her again, sleep for a couple of hours, and get up and tend to her again and then I go to work, and start the same process over again. Though it may sound easy, its not... My daughter is 12 yrs old and is in a wheelchair so when I am tending to her, it involves feeding, and pottying, and exercises, and sometimes appointments. So sleeping for a couple of hours and then doing all that is extremely draining, and by the end of the week I am so exhausted most of the time I don't do anything but lounge around to recoup and prepare for the next week. I struggle, I make mistakes, and I am most certainly not perfect at anything. I am only human... But each day i try my best to make that next day better not only for myself but for my daughter as well. You see we have been couped up since the shutdowns began. I get to leave more than she does, but she basically only leaves once or twice a month, and it isn't fun especially for her. I mean this was her summer and she did absolutely nothing, but only because of her health and safety I just cant risk it. So by staying inside there has been more stress, and anxiety, and depression not only for us, but for everyone that is facing these struggles, and hardships. So with all 3 of those combined its no wonder I personally feel like a failure. NO energy to do anything but SURVIVE... But I am tired of SURVIVING, I want to LIVE!!!
Each day is a new challange, and each day we make it through to the end. We may not be millionaires, but we are still alive. The more we dwell on things that seem big to us, in reality they are microscopic.
Focus on the positive and let the negative go, and eventually all that stress, anxiety, and depression will fade. You will no longer feel like you are failing. You will no longer feel like a failure. You will see your worth and all your accomplishments, no matter how big or small they are.
Just remember to never compare yourself to what others have, or have done; because although it might seem like they have everything, they very well could be extremely unhappy just like the rest of us.
Money doesn't buy happiness, only materialistic things!