I am a Failure.

Last Update: August 10, 2020

I am a Failure...

I am Failing, so that makes me a failure... At least that is what I have been telling myself for the last several months. Until today... That all stops!!!

I have been comparing myself to everyone else's accomplishments, but not sitting back and looking at my own accomplishments that I make on a daily basis.

All to often we compare our selves to someone else, and lose sight of what is really important. We all go through many different things, and here recently we have all been facing some of the same struggles; regardless of what country we are from. Some countries are handling it better than others, and some well there is some major concern. But I am not a political person and unless I absolutely have to I won't speak on the matter. And well right now I don't have to so I won't!!

But what I will speak on is my accomplishments, and your accomplishments and how we all portray ourselves when it comes to those accomplishments.

Everyday I go to work, just like most of you... I work third shift 10 hour shifts. I get off and tend to my beautiful daughter, I sleep for a couple of hours, get up and tend to her again, sleep for a couple of hours, and get up and tend to her again and then I go to work, and start the same process over again. Though it may sound easy, its not... My daughter is 12 yrs old and is in a wheelchair so when I am tending to her, it involves feeding, and pottying, and exercises, and sometimes appointments. So sleeping for a couple of hours and then doing all that is extremely draining, and by the end of the week I am so exhausted most of the time I don't do anything but lounge around to recoup and prepare for the next week. I struggle, I make mistakes, and I am most certainly not perfect at anything. I am only human... But each day i try my best to make that next day better not only for myself but for my daughter as well. You see we have been couped up since the shutdowns began. I get to leave more than she does, but she basically only leaves once or twice a month, and it isn't fun especially for her. I mean this was her summer and she did absolutely nothing, but only because of her health and safety I just cant risk it. So by staying inside there has been more stress, and anxiety, and depression not only for us, but for everyone that is facing these struggles, and hardships. So with all 3 of those combined its no wonder I personally feel like a failure. NO energy to do anything but SURVIVE... But I am tired of SURVIVING, I want to LIVE!!!

Each day is a new challange, and each day we make it through to the end. We may not be millionaires, but we are still alive. The more we dwell on things that seem big to us, in reality they are microscopic.

Focus on the positive and let the negative go, and eventually all that stress, anxiety, and depression will fade. You will no longer feel like you are failing. You will no longer feel like a failure. You will see your worth and all your accomplishments, no matter how big or small they are.

Just remember to never compare yourself to what others have, or have done; because although it might seem like they have everything, they very well could be extremely unhappy just like the rest of us.

Money doesn't buy happiness, only materialistic things!

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Farah20 Premium
Useful points and spoken from the heart! Its true as you wrote not to dwell on the things that seem big to us, as in reality , they are microscopic! I have done this too many times and it is as good as torturing yourself, quite harshly! There are many positives everywhere, if you stop to look and focus on this more.
I truly enjoyed reading, thank you!
Farmbeauty34 Premium
You are welcome, and thank you... Hope you have a wonderful day!
LMH1968 Premium Plus
Great post. We are all on different stages of the journey. That’s why we should never compare ourselves to others.
philmedia Premium Plus
Great post and remember never get into a fight with yourself , no one ever wins that one. A nice bit of reflection, important stuff. Self care begins... thx
MikeKurtis Premium Plus
Thanks for sharing. You've said many many facts here and sharing what you go through everyday is truth positive. You ain't hiding and pretending. You just been real.

Struggles is what we all go through. Trust me...

I love PPC and i fail so many times at it. I spend money over and over but I tell myself...

I will not be defeated!

For every dollar i spend in Google and Bing, I gain knowledge and data to fine tune my education.

WA is a freaking gem and I value this place very much. I am not here often as you can see my rank has significaly dropped into the 1000. It was 114 a few months back.

But my goal is to win!

Keep positive and thanks again for your encougragment.
Farmbeauty34 Premium
Thank you for reading, and sharing... Also you are welcome... I love WA, I haven't been here long myself, and I haven't been able to get on to do as much as I would have liked over the past few months. But I found the inspiration and motivation to push me a little harder and I think you will see more posts from me for sure. I like to be positive and upbeat when I am not in my little funk... LOL but again thank you for your kind words it is very much appreciated.