I'm choking I feel like I bit off way more than I can chew.
This web building is looking very intimidating. It is taking everything I thought I knew about the computer technology and shown me what I know and understand would not even fill a thimble and what I NEED to know to do this would fill a 55 gallon drum!! My problem is the patience I have for myself to learn this, I'm wondering if I have what it takes...I know I'm tired and the new profile picture is another reason I'm stressing. This beautiful young lady is my youngest daughter, Rose. We had to hospitalize her again last evening for the 12th time in 16 years and each time this happens she becomes a little more afraid and my heart breaks a bit more. Her illness requires some very strong drugs which change the chemicals in her brain and body and getting the combination correct is not an exact science. The episodes have become more and more frequent and can really work on a mom's ability to cope.
But sometimes these are the kinds of things that make a person realize that finding a way to deal with these problems is out there, somewhere there is someone else dealing with the same thing, and that is what makes the internet such a marvelous tool. We have the ability to reach such a multitude of individuals to find the answer to the problem.
Pushing through the muddled mess brings us through to the other side a winner, knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel. I love when I give myself a chance to muddle through something, knowing when I get through to the other side I look back and I remember some of the obstacles and how I felt like giving up thinking I don't have a clue as to what I should do and then oftentimes in the darkest moment you pick up a paper and you see a phone number or a phrase or remember something someone said and you realize this is it, this is what I was looking for, and so you have new found hope and new found energy to push through to the other side and get it done.
The process can be never-ending sometimes as it has become with our sweet daughter, we just keep on going and keep on trying and hoping someday we will find the answer to the correct combination to keep her healthy and happy just like she is in the profile picture I have posted this morning.