I'm choking I feel like I bit off way more than I can chew.

Last Update: October 03, 2016

This web building is looking very intimidating. It is taking everything I thought I knew about the computer technology and shown me what I know and understand would not even fill a thimble and what I NEED to know to do this would fill a 55 gallon drum!! My problem is the patience I have for myself to learn this, I'm wondering if I have what it takes...I know I'm tired and the new profile picture is another reason I'm stressing. This beautiful young lady is my youngest daughter, Rose. We had to hospitalize her again last evening for the 12th time in 16 years and each time this happens she becomes a little more afraid and my heart breaks a bit more. Her illness requires some very strong drugs which change the chemicals in her brain and body and getting the combination correct is not an exact science. The episodes have become more and more frequent and can really work on a mom's ability to cope.

But sometimes these are the kinds of things that make a person realize that finding a way to deal with these problems is out there, somewhere there is someone else dealing with the same thing, and that is what makes the internet such a marvelous tool. We have the ability to reach such a multitude of individuals to find the answer to the problem.

Pushing through the muddled mess brings us through to the other side a winner, knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel. I love when I give myself a chance to muddle through something, knowing when I get through to the other side I look back and I remember some of the obstacles and how I felt like giving up thinking I don't have a clue as to what I should do and then oftentimes in the darkest moment you pick up a paper and you see a phone number or a phrase or remember something someone said and you realize this is it, this is what I was looking for, and so you have new found hope and new found energy to push through to the other side and get it done.

The process can be never-ending sometimes as it has become with our sweet daughter, we just keep on going and keep on trying and hoping someday we will find the answer to the correct combination to keep her healthy and happy just like she is in the profile picture I have posted this morning.

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Sloki Premium
Hi Dolly, you are echoing a million voices with your post. Some will quit never to return some will carry on and eventually succeed. I hope you can find the strength and will to make it through the course and that your daughter will find herself cured.
Good luck with all you do you deserve it.
And a big hug to Rose from all of us.
MPollock Premium
Just keep on practicing you will get there.
zoeyred Premium
Hi Dolly,
I resonated with your story because I am a single parent raising a child who has Autism. I am helping her recover from Autism. You can read Malika's journey @ http://threestepstomorning.com

At one point in time, my daughter was in and out of the hospital and using medication prescribed by doctors that was not good for her. These drugs were slowly killing her.

I started researching the drugs and confronted her doctors. I weaned her off all her medications, and started following Jim Primack's Protocol Conquering Any Disease With Healthy Smoothies http://wuchifoundation.org/documents/IOC05_Conquering_Any_Disease_with_Healthy_Smoothies.pdf

I do not know what is wrong with your daughter, but there is a way to heal the body. Doctors treat crises and tend not to prevent them.

Here is a good resource to read and research: Putting It All Together: The New Orthomolecular Nutrition by Abram Hoffer, M.D., Ph.D & Morton Walker, D.P.M.

I hope this has been helpful!

NathalieJG Premium
I am sorry to he4lar about your daughter. Have you thought about different therapies? I don't know what she has but maybe it worth checking someting different.
Regarding, building your website. No need to put pressure on you. You have enough pressure with your daughter. However, you should see building your website business as a way to think about something else.
Best of luck with everything.
Hofmeister Premium
I'm sorry about your situation. I lost my brother 25 years ago, and while this obviously hurt me in ways I can't describe, I saw first hand how it affected my parents. There is just nothing worse in this world than being a parent and having a child who is not healthy. I am blessed with a beautiful, healthy daughter, and I really don't know how I could go on living if anything ever happened to her. Bless you and your family and remember that you have friends here.