What If You Know How It All End?

Last Update: July 21, 2020

Hello everyone at WA, I hope you all are doing amazing especially being that we live in an unprecedented time.

I just want to share with you a little bit of my journey, not to make you feel pity, but to encourage you in your journey that whatever you are going through or passing through is only temporary (transient), and that you shouldn't give up because of the disappointment from family, failures, loss of jobs, and the least go on...

I have always know that I wanted to go into medicine because it gives me great joy to help people, especially in their vulnerable moment, and I find it intriguing to understand the pathophysiology of dieseses; basically, how the human body works to maintain what science called homeostasis (internal balance of the environment) and combat against diseases.

So, when I went in medical school, it was very easy and exciting. Everything was going great, never fail an exam since I started formal education, until recently the storm hit, the dark cloud surrounded me.

I became out of homeostatic (imbalance) from having a set back as I was about to graduate from medical school.

I basically failed my clinical skills exam because I can't type fast enough to write a patient note. Then took it again shortly and failed without mastering typing on computer because I didn't want all the money ( over $15000) spent in residency application and traveling for interviews, including already in massive student loan debt.

The storm aftermaths

Lost my opportunities of starting residency this July 2020, paid to learn typing and for the exam the third time, and hope to apply for 2021 residency, but COVID-19 hit, USMLE Step 2 CS exam suspended 12-18 months, and when I was thinking all my prayers, fasting, and hope has been answered, then the ECFMG the body that certified International Medical Graduates (IMGs) crushes my dream saying that I, including thousands of aspiring physicians had to wait because we failed two or times.

It's hard for me to wake up every morning, not having a job, not able to exercise regularly, and play freely with my kids.

It's hard not to see yourself as a failure, or question God because it goes against everything I believe in.
i don't know why he allowed all these to happen, but what I do know is that all things work together for my good and be will give me an expected, victorious, and triumphant end. So for you too.


I know it's hard, but l want you to stop and ask yourself this question, "What if you know how it all end?" What if I tell you that at the end, your business become successful, you became financially free from debt, have the financial feedom, and get to have time to spend with your family?

Let's not forget being free from sicknesses, the happy relationship, etc.

I hope this post, my story inspire you to not give up, but continue to find joy and pursue your dreams.

I'm still standing and more determined to succeed.

If you have any comments, please leave it below.

Thanks for reading.

Be safe at there.

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JeffreyBrown Premium
Perseverance, Benson! You WILL get there, my friend!

LMH1968 Premium Plus
Thanks for sharing. Keep up the great work.
bluemagic64 Premium
OMG, Benson you make me cry. I always in that situation when depression, frustration, family problems and financial hit me. But here what I wanted to added in here. As long as we are alive and strong what so ever the storm in our life put our trust to him. He give this trial to make you to be strong,.Who knows tomorrow comes all things twist in the other direction, where the light await.


BensonE Premium
Absolutely Nila. When there is life, there is hope.
Thanks for the hugs and encouragement. I have already rise above all storm that’s why I decided to share because I see a massive wave of depression and anxiety visiting the world we all live now.

Palymar Premium
Our situations help to define us. It is in adversity that we grow. Keep up the good work.
BensonE Premium