We have no future

bonjour and hello WA

I know money come and go but time won't right ?

it's been 2 years since i had become a student of wealthy affiliate education program that's will pay me if i gave everything and maybe right but i am not a perfect either.

dear my ex girlfriends

thank you for all the memories and i wish you the best in your future lifes and have a nice day and i will love you always until you told me we have no future.

when she said i don't feel like before what i had for you i think its better to tell you then to keep since the last time i told you about the way my dad cried !

i said we are in the society and if i can talk with your dad ! will this gonna change ?

she said ya but the thing is that i feel like i lost some of my feeling because he cried because of me.

I said ! okay if it is this way and let's say if he really wants us to break up ! you said you will choose me over and you know i don't have house coz i have place to stay and you are not coming out.

she said yeah but things change i can't be selfish over my family especially if he cries like this plus my mom never saw him cry.she cries too and they are worried over me.

I said what you wanna do ?

just to focus on myself

i told her i will give you enough time

she said the thing is that i lost my feeling when this happen.

I said they made you not me ( i know it's over ) it's hard to swallow the truth but then

i said why it's takes so long tell me truth she said coz i need to confirm.

I said you waste my 5 years and 8 months, you cold as her

and she said i am really sorry for letting you down as same as Jess as you said i am worse than her

i said you the best

she said but i think that i gave you so much that now i feel empty

i said you get what you deserve ( actually i get what i deserve but i said this to her )

she said okay

i said why you feel empty you wanna us to end

she said i don't know any ways'

i said congrats

she said for what

everything

i said you should choose your parents the day we caught !

she said i was really young though that time and love is everything when you get older things change

i said yeah at same time you start working and now you think i will let you pay me

she said any ways' no it's not that i said i lost them i don't have much left

i said ice cold

she said i am sorry

i told her don't say sorry coz sorry won't take back better not say it.

Okay she said

i said i can't save you from this and you act like you are already some else

she said i said i don't have

we can be friends but i can't face you anymore.

I wasn't ready for this and i don't believe what just happened when you have no society knowledge degree to be slave coz entrepreneur life is self-made and my parents are not in Europe so i have to go job and also i need to educated myself.

I was about to create my company mais bon she leave me heart broken and remember the date 2020 TUESDAY 10:30 AM Her last messsage take care i'm off then and i double click the last message gave a thump nail.

Next day

thursday and friday i send her alot message but she refuse to read and she compeletly block me in all platfrom

i was attached to her and forget to take care my bank account. knowing that she will leave me if i have no money ! this went like in movie and dumped by her because you have no money no house no car.

Friday

i am outside and i brought vodka agrum,beer,smoked alot canaabis.the drama was awful and i regret alot i went home alone at 6 am

staturday

just after work i went straight her home and its was 11;45 pm i hesiate a lot to ring the ball but i don't wanna run away from this i want her tell me in face and she did as i expect.

but i came there to fix the problem and i have to apologize what happen 4 years ago but she refuse to let me see her parents.

luckly her neigbour put digtal code and i went with force coz i thought i can convice them but they are worst. they told me you never ask permession from the starting and why you need know.

her mom told me go back to slave school finised my diplome and they told me they didn't interfere our relationship. it's was all her decision but i knows it's lie she never lie on me after that they trying to tell me they have work tomorrow i have to leave, they don't care anymore.

so i apologize about the last time at same time my tears coming out my voice is chocking.

I ask her give me ring back and she gave me ! i said you have anything to say she said nah i used all force hit ring in her dinner room and her dad shout the door.

it's was raining outside and my tears coming out automatically and in my heart its raining too.

I took the bus got called my bro and he was surprise what had happen and we went look for alchohol and i went black out that night.

thankful he got my back all night and she hurt all the friends who care about me and my family will never forgive me because they warning me way back.

today tuesday

2:46 AM 2020

I have shared this becoz i don't wanna keep this inside myself. I knows i have to keep this silence but your opinion mind help me or hurt me.

yedhun dhursar

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