The first step is always the hardest
Sometimes when you’re at the foot of a mountain, knowing exactly what you have to do and how to do it, it will still never fail to keep you frozen in your spot. For the past month or so I have kept to myself here on WA, silently doing my own thing, working on my website on the good days, crafting my niche and randomly going through the lessons provided and learning new things about the entreperneur world when I was in the mood.
That doesn't mean I flew by the lessons with flying colours. Nope. As a matter of fact, I found myself waking up every day, having an internal conversation with myself questioning whether I was going to return to WA and finish my training or not. Each day had it's unique battle, but majority of the battles revolved around going back to WA to carry on the website building workload. Some days, the battles were so bad, they had me doing everything other than hopping back online to continue the work grind.
Today, I've finally snapped myself out of the dreamy trance we all seem to find ourselves in when faced with a task that could lead to a new chapter in our lives, but could also mean a lot of work and commitment.
It also doesn't help when the unknown is always met with a lingering after thought of self-doubt.
Do I really have what it takes to create a platform that matters to me for the world to take notice of?
Will anyone even take me seriously because, in their eyes, a 19-year old obviously has a lot to learn about the world before sharing her ideas to us?
What does a 19-year old like me have that the rest of the world would want to sit down and listen to?
These are some of the thoughts I constantly have to overcome in order to carry on with my day.
Yesterday, instead of finishing my last lesson in training 1 I instead rolled all my clothes into separate, individual, neat burritos, while rapper Joyner Lucas was on blast in my room and if that doesn't scream procastination then I don't know what does.
Because of the amount of time I had wasted making fabric burritos, I felt a shift deep inside my gut. The realisation of exactly how much time I've already wasted avoiding having to do something that my future self would thank me for.
And so, I completed my level 1 today, bright and early because I have now decided that it would be more rewarding to start today, so that I don't feel reluctant about what tomorrow brings as well as preventing myself from regretting yesterday.
The first step is always the hardest, don't be like me and wait till a month later to start putting your head down and putting in some work (My own mother is a witness to my notorious avoidance behaviour towards everything and anything that she knows I am fully capable of accomplishing).
The climb is easier than taking that first step and starting a journey and the journey is what makes the climb to the top of the mountain worth the struggle.
This is future me thanking myself for yesterday's wake up call.
Because I will try to welcome tomorrow with eager arms instead of rolling cotton burritos just to avoid doing what I knew I needed to do from the very beginning.
Until the next update,
Vic
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Well done Victory on completed the first part.
I am sure you will continue to do well with the added support from home.
Know that we are all here to help you when or if you need even to give a nudge to be able to thank your future self for the wonderful you are doing now.
Just keep believing in yourself as well believe in you.
Enjoy and keep going forward
Andre