Protecting Myself from Me

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Updated 2 years ago

The disease of addiction has a ferocious appetite.

It survives on what we feed it. It draws much of its strength from our shortcomings and fears, but it’s the secrets we hold on to that nourish it the most.

And the more secrets we keep, the more it has to feed on, and the stronger it gets.

Our secrets provide so many other goodies for this disease to gorge itself on: dishonesty, shame, lack of trust, guilt, and isolation.

Whatever we cannot talk about gives this disease more fuel.

That is why there has to be at least one person with whom you share all your secrets.

So, with that said, what is it that you are not telling?

Are you secretly holding on to thoughts about visiting dangerous places, or the desire to use?

Does it have something to do with dirty money, or your sexual impulses? Or is it something else?

We need to starve this ravenous disease, and we do it by getting rigorously honest with ourselves and revealing the secrets we were planning to keep to ourselves.

Sharing your deepest secrets could involve many options.

Some of us have shared our stuff with our sponsors within the fellowships, being Narcotics Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous or another fellowship.

Another fellowship could be your Pastor at your church or the therapist you've been seeing...or the therapist you need to be seeing!

The point is this. We are only as sick as our secrets.

Have you decided that you are tired of being sick?

Have you decided that you are tired of being sick and tired?

I decided almost fourteen years ago that I was.