A story about personal Space
One distinct key thing when being autistic is that autistic people have a ''safe haven'', a place where we can withdraw to when either i need to calm down or i just don't want to see anyone.
During my uppbringing i suffered at age 14 a growing depression from the effects of the school system and a personal tragedy. For a period of time i lived in several institutions, a fancy word for ''places we put retards and depressed people in''.
One of those places was a place called Bjornvallsgården, a place i will always remember with scorn and disgust. The reason for it being that i like to withdraw to my room/apartment when I'm not in the mood, cool down or just being left alone. The people working at the place were unable to understand it, so i became increasingly stressed out because of that.
For the moment i live in a temporary living, waiting for something that's starting to feel like its never gonna happen. At the beginning of my time living there, they were ''aggressively present''. I got to meet allot of new personnel, that isn't good. An autistic person very often has problems meeting to many new people in a short time, it stresses us out.
Anyway, they wanted to check out on me once a day. I hated that because i had already become fed up with their crap of wanting to ''get to know me''. You don't get to know me by saying hi, you get to know me by spending time with me and doing stuff like play video games.
The important thing is, they understand i want minimal contact with them. It feels allot better now, because frankly I'm not a people person. I don't like people in general and more often than not avoid people and unless i have a reason to talk to someone, i don't talk to them.
When it comes to my site, i haven''t done that much. Written some stuff like two posts on Random Events and Scripted events in games. Also did some preps for upcoming Swedish lessons. Purchased a Rockband mic of the Swedish Ebay (Tradera), have yet to get it from the post so I'm waiting on that one. Want to use that microphone to get better audio quality and to start off a new series, a live commentary series on the game Project Zomboid.
This has been TheApeMania... have a good one.
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Thanks for sharing your story. I wish you much success!
Thanks, i felt the need to write about it and it helped me process the situation better. I also wrote about so that people can get to know me better and also to write about something else than business because just writing about business is so boring.