Back On Track

byTanyaB

166 followers

8 years ago

This is my first blog entry for quite some time!. I have had quite a long break, from the blog and also from WA. Is it because I lost faith, I hear you ask (or at least I am assuming someone may be asking lol), or is it because I became soooo successful overnight that I no longer needed the support of this network of amazing people?. Is it because I got lazy? (God knows I have suffered at times from a crippling combination of laziness meets procrastination).

None of the above actually. Ok, perhaps the no bull.... answer is that the loss of faith things did happen a little, but with a caveat. I never lost faith in WA. It was more a loss of faith in myself. And it was not actually a loss of faith in my potential. I don't see myself as particularly ego-centric by nature, but then I am pretty sure that ego-maniacs think themselves to be completely humble! Awesome and abnormally gifted, but humble about their greatness lol. But it wasn't a loss of faith in WA or in my potential. It was a loss of faith in life's fleetingness for want of a better word.

I had a heart incident a few months ago that saw me in hospital and uncertain of my future. I am one of soooo many people who experience the big 'OMG I could like die!" moment, and it does rock you to the core. The incident itself is a shock but then you have to get yourself back to where you were before and that takes a lot of energy and effort.

So I guess I can tick that off my 'Things I don't want to repeat in my life' list (man that list is getting too damn long, it's hitting the floor lol), and now I want to focus back on the 'Things that I will achieve despite any damn obstacle' list. The gaining of personal strength is an asset. I have assets that will serve me even better now going forward.

I am a stubborn mule!. I embrace my stubborn-ness. I am committed to reconnecting with the WA network here and getting back into my training and building my website up so it can live up to the promise of a few months ago when I was so proud of how it was looking and how much I had learnt.

Whatever happens in life, you have to keep that positive outlook don't you?. But we are just human and circumstances can rob us of that passion for life. The strength comes in being able to identify that the bad thoughts and feelings don't serve us and that we can choose better. It sometimes takes a bit of time, but success is often hard won, and let's face it, it shouldn't be easy really, no growth in that.