Accountability!

So Here I am! September is around the corner ... literally it is 11pm August 31st and I've had enough.

This will be a, going back to the past blog, but also a wake up call blog!

This is a demand for accountability. Stagnant no longer.

I am a single woman 45 and I raised my two boys by myself. Their dad was present and did do his part as a father. Today they are 20 and 18 and I feel I have let them down in the last few years. Back in 2006, I found a job working with child services. Even though I did not have a degree or any diploma in that field of work, I was able to be recruited as an employee. It was a good salary and I met some great people, families and children. I do wish I could have done more. Sometimes I felt like I was no help at all.

Anyways, some years later in 2013, I lost my dad of a sudden heart attack. That really makes you think about how fragile life is. It took me a good while to recuperate (if there is such a thing as to recuperate from the loss of a loved one) but the loss is more manageable I should say. I took a year off of work, I renovated my father's house and built a home for the boys and I. And in 2015, I could not return to children's services. I found I had to do something of value, something that I could feel good about and something where I could see I was making progress. Don't get me wrong child youth workers devote a lot of energy and they are strong people to be able to see all the injustice and try and try to support with all the resources they have. It's just a line of work I could not deal with as I'm way too sensitive and want to resolve every issue NOW, but that is not how the system works.

Since then, I've looked for work, I've worked here and there, trying to find something ... trying to go back and fit in at another job as en employee, but my heart was just not there.

I have learned so much throughout all the experiences I have lived, I appreciate who I am, always willing to grow and I am eager to always learn more. That said, I also am very comfortable teaching, but I've held back because I do not have a degree, well that's my excuse, but enough of the excuses, enough of the victim, just enough.

This is why i am making a demand dear W A people. Will you be my accountability partner? I actually did find a great lady here on the platform and we are messaging every day to keep each other accountable. I love it! She's supporting me in my website development and bringing my business online. Chatting with her is also very motivating.

And now, I want to move forward and upgrade my finances. I do not want to settle right here where I'm at. I know my business online can't give me the financial resources I need overnight, but I do have other creative ways to increase my income in the meantime. I just need a push to surpass this plateau and this will help me to see that I too can achieve more, that I too can plan to bring my boys on a trip and not have to wait 2 years before it really happens. I do not want to let them down. I would like for them to see their mother accomplish a few great things!

It is not easy being vulnerable and showing people your weaknesses, but I need to surpass and learn new ways, new habits ... am sending this out there ...

To all, I am wishing you a great month of September, a lot of success and also much happiness,

Renee