It is time to learn the party begins when you are open to it.
I remember thinking I was going to conquer the world and succeed at everything I did. I have learned over the last 35 or so years it isn't that easy. One would think the lesson would be learned and life would continue at an uphill pace. Nope, not this girl. In 1990 I turned over a new leaf and invited the Holiest of Hollies into my life but at that time I was extremely ill and reaching for anything or anyone to help me heal.
Fast forward to the year 2001. I had cleared many hurdles, not giving credit where credit was, due, not giving credit to whom it was due. I began going to church on my own after my second daughter was born; my marriage was on the rocks and I needed to know why.
As I engulfed myself in the Word and eagerly learned all He had been trying to teach me all along, things would have been much easier. But to refine silver, the edges have to be rubbed off. That is what He was doing to me, refining me in the fire, buffing off the edges.
I have learned a great many lessons and spent a great deal of time in the Word. My favorite verse is 2Tim1:7. "For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but of power, love and a sound mind." That one really spoke to me. The sky is not the limit, it is what ever I set it at.
I have learned through this community that it is alright to ask for help and guidance and it is alright to accept love and guidance in the spirit it was meant.
So I've pulled up my boot straps after going though a lifer altering event and I am starting over. I was a few points from Ambassador, not I am at 324, But that gives me a chance to do things right, So I'm grabbing the bull by the horns and holding on for the ride. I have to earn what I want and what I need and I have to learn the difference. between the two. I can do it, I will learn it, So come on community, let's join together and learn together!