Needing a Fresh Start
My last blog entry was Dec. 7th, and since then my life has been dominated by hospital and nursing home visits. My mother has not rallied from her fall on December 2nd. In fact, she has grown much worse. It's a little after midnight here as I sit at her bedside at the in-patient hospice watching her cope with the ravages of congestive heart failure and knowing she is dying as I watch.
For all of December and January I have not been emotionally able to do anything at all on my niche site. I did manage to start the boot camp training, and I think that starting fresh as a promoter of Wealthy Affiliate is what I need to do in the next few months I am more passionate about Wealthy Affiliate than I am my niche site. I probably should have done that in the first place. Maybe later on I will try a niche site again.
As soon as I level out emotionally, I'll be back here on a regular basis. Please pray for my family as we come to grips with losing our mother, and give a prayer of thanksgiving for our mother as she steps forward into her forever life.
Pat
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Awww Pat - I feel for you. I'm going to a family funeral today - but at the same time, reading what the minister will be saying about him, reminds us of what a full and happy life he had. That, as with your mam I hope, is what should be celebrated. This is just one step in a much longer journey.
All the best to you and your family Pat,
Mark
Thank you, Mark. Mom had a rich life although you wouldn't measure it with a monetary ruler. She loved children an taught kindergarten for almost 20 years after my dad died. I'll never forget watching her work for hours creating learning activities that made learning more enjoyable. She served in her church with live, too, teaching young children as well as older adult women about the love of God.
I've spent the past 18 years living with her, taking her to DisneyWorld, traveling around California's many tourist sites, and doing many other things that give me a treasure chest of wonderful memories.
Your sweet post has given me pause to ponder these things.
Pat
Pat, you said it - Without Jesus we have nothing. So much to look forward to someday. You and your mom are in my deepest thoughts and prayers. I lost my mom in 2005. She was 87. Seems like it was only a year or two ago. Don't know where the time went. Talk to your mother even if you don't think she can hear you. The doctor told us that one of the last things to go is the hearing. This is your time to let it all out. Talk about fun memories in your life with her. She can hear you. I'm here if you need to talk or just need someone to listen to you.
~ Diane
I talk to her all I can. Tonight I began to sing softly to her---some of her favorite hymns. It wasn't long before she settled down from her anxiety and just smiled and listened. Then to my surprise she be an to sing with me. I wouldn't trade these moments with her for anything in the world.
Pat
My heart goes out to you and I will pray.Be kind to yourself, you cannot rush this.When you are able to focus again WA will still be here.Right now you need to be with your mom.
I hope you have other family support or friends.
Thank you, Christine. My brother and sister are sharing the round the clock sitting with Mom. They have been a major source of support for me. My friends at church are giving me prayer support and are there for me if I need anything. I'm in a good place with this.
Pat
Pat, we'll be keeping you and your family in prayer. Heaven awaits those who trust in the Lord... pretty awesome, huh?
As magnificent as "awesome" is, it's a huge understatement for the hope we have in heaven. I think Mom is getting a few glimpses of it now because we can hear her talking to our father who died in 1966. That was a blessing to hear. Thank you for sharing.
Pat
Thank you so much for the prayers. I know you must understand the pain of loss we are feeling. Mom is 93, and her heart is just worn out. I appreciate your sharing with me.
Pat
Hey Pat...you and your Mom are in my prayers. My Mom passed last July from congestive heart failure. She was 89. I held her hand bedside for two weeks until it was over. It was the hardest thing I ever had to do. But I am glad I was able to leave California and go to Maryland to be by her side. May God bless you.
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Pat, very sorry to hear of your mother. I will add your mother and your family to my prayers. We will be here when you return. Take care and know you are being thought of. Debbie
Thanks, Debbie. I appreciate your kind thoughts and prayers.
Pat