I Am Grateful For The Moment
I feel I should explain my long absence. My work life has been getting increasingly depressing. At sixty-four, it is not something I can walk away from and easily find alternative employment. I continue to weather the storm but the day job is my primary source of stress.
At the end of June, my mother passed away. Our parents passing is something most of us have to face eventually and is inevitable. But when it happens, we are never ready. I miss my dad, and now I miss my mum. I pick up the batton as the older generation. I wasn't expecting to write my mother's eulogy but that is what I did. The funeral directors made that easy for me, in such a way that I didn't know I'd written one until I had answered all their questions.
On writing Mum's eulogy, I borrowed a line from Walt Disney's 'Bambi'. Where 'Thumper' had said something uncomplementary towards the new-born Bambi, and momma rabbit said to Thumber, "What did your father tell you this morning?". Meakly, Thumper stuttered "If you can't say something nice, don't say nothing at all." Mum always saw the best in people, or said nothing.
I don't understand why I don't write more often. I like writing. I like the play on words. I like how a change in grammar, can change the whole meaning of a sentence. I love how the choice of words can influence emotions in the reader. I will write more frequently.
My promise to myself is this. I will remember the past, but worry not. I look forward to the future, but fear not. I will enjoy the moment. I am grateful that I share this instance with you.
Thank you All. I will be back up to speed soon.
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Deepest condolences Paul. Self care at this time is important and writing has shown to be very healing. My thoughts are with you.
Pam
Paul, sorry to hear about the passing of your mother. This is post is beautifully written. Your mother would proud of what you wrote.
I know the feeling about work at our age. And, it is very difficult to find employment later in life. I wish you much success here at WA at this point in your life.
Cal
My deepest condolences.
Take good care of yourself...
Your promise to yourself is a very wise one.
Judy
My condolences Paul, it is true that we miss our parents no matter how old we are. Take care of yourself.
Sorry for your loss Paul.
From afar I will certainly do what I can to encourage you to keep your promise to yourself.
We cannot change the past only the future. I look forward to hearing from you when your back up to speed
Kevin
Thank you, Kevin. I enjoy the things I do at this moment. I have no idea what tomorrow will bring. Right now, I am finding solace in writing.
I am so so sorry for your loss. You are so right. We are never ready.
I will be looking forward to your return.
Laura
I think that is the one state of mind we all tend to forget the most - gratitude. Thanks, Fran.
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My deepest condolences, Paul. It's good you have made a promise to yourself.
I understand the difficulties of finding a job as an older person. There were concerns at my last employer that I was too old for the job. Ha
I got the last laugh. There are advantages to being older and wiser than the youngsters at work. I could get up early and be first into work. Didn't have a need to socialize every minute of the day. Could work through the challenges on the job because I had already seen them more than once.
I ramble. Anyway, best of success to you 'cause you can do it.
Thank you, Glen, and thanks for the reminder. 😊