A Crawl to Success - In The Midst of Tribulation
I hit a fearful inevitable milestone recently. A reality I never wanted to realize. I've only managed to free my head enough to share with my friends here the reason for my abrupt disappearance. My situation isn't over yet, but the force of the second impact blindsided me. I got the call. Actually more so, the text - yes this news was delivered by text by my seventeen year old niece. My uncle .../father/brother/best-friend was taken off his oxygen on Father's day. Through text I was told he's crying saying he doesn't want to die. Through text I was told that the family decided to go along with the doctors and treat him as if there is nothing more that could be done for him. And I am powerless.
So, this is my first day returning to press forward in the midst of tribulation. In the midst of all things prodigious -or so it seems- I felt here is where I begin my blogs. My uncle is afraid on his deathbed. The man who is always strong, smiling, patient and very bold for a pint sized guy (I'm pretty tall: haha (my medicine:we all know laughter is medicine)) has for the first time in my lifetime fully awakened me to the importance of living. You would probably say, "Well who doesn't know this?" , because I know the whole 'live life to the fullest' slogan. I thought I actually did, especially through my twenties but now I know I haven't. In honor of my uncle and all his kindness, love and gifts he has shared with me, I want to live. Right now I feel crippled in my journey. But I know that even a slow sorrow-filled crawl to success is better than a dormant desire for success.
A Bit About The Genius:
My uncle is a registered martial artist and master mechanic who was also the local passerby's mechanic. His beautiful spirit (after early retirement) enjoyed the freedom of helping from block to block, yard to yard those who couldn't otherwise afford to keep their cars running. Through pain, illnesses and multiple surgeries he would help others. Unlike many in my life, my uncle respected my ruff and curious side. He fed just about every curiosity I had until I was ready to move on to my next interest. We are the best of friends so much so that people thought our relationship was unnatural (never). Until this last news I didn't realize the depth of the impact he made in my life. Yes, I'm in tears. The reality of this is unbearable.
Thank you in advance for your support through this and through my crawl to success.
Mjahdah
UPDATE:
June 20, 2015, my uncle was unitedly celebrated and our eternal love sent to companion him within his next journey.
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I am so sorry about yr uncle, Mjahdah, pls take care and cherish the beautiful memories you have of him. :)
I am so sorry to hear this sad news! Hold on the Love and cherish the life of the Love your uncle has blessed you with!