Sorry I was so quiet!

byLynneHuy

7.4K followers

8 years ago

This has been a really trying week for me, so I went very quiet.

Sometimes I feel the need to just retreat from the world for a while, to recharge my batteries in peace and quiet.

I think this time was brought about by the death of a friend. I was working hard, long hours and I was on a roll.... and then everything came tumbling down in sadness.

I did hardly any work, but spent a lot of time in quiet reflection.

Even though at times during the last week I felt like I was not moving anywhere or even going backwards I enjoy these times and I'll explain why.

I have not had a real rest in years

There are 2 times in the last 5 years I have taken time off. Both times I took 2 weeks off in total where I did no work at all.

So 2 weeks sounds like a great rest right?

Holiday 1: The birth of my daughter LOL

I worked full time until 5pm 27 October 2011, my waters broke at about 6pm. I was in labor for 42 hours with a posterior baby (and no pain relief at all because I am an addict I can't take anything).

This was attempting a home water birth. When the midwife told me I was STILL 4 cm dilated I decided I had enough and stuff this natural birth idea, I'm going to have her chopped out!

So my daughter was born at 12h55pm on the 29 October 2011 via emergency c-section.

Need I say that the first 2 days of my "holiday" wasn't very restful?

I took off a total of 2 weeks and by 14 November 2011 I was working again full steam.

At this time I was doing freelance bookkeeping from home... oh my that feels like a life time ago!

By the way I detest bookkeeping, I just sort of landed in it. I was good at it, I could make some money in it and I could work from home.

Very soon I realized I couldn't get much done with a baby with me and started hating what I did. I didn't want to send my baby off to someone else so I could do a job I hate to pay someone else to look after my baby.... so I launched my online baby store instead when my baby was 6 months old.

Holiday 2: The birth of my son

At this stage I had also opened a little walk in shop in the next town. I worked full time until 4pm on the 19 December 2013. On the 20th December 2013 my hubby drove me into Cape Town to the hospital and my son was born via elective c-section 11h50am.

On the 6th January 2014 I was back at my shop every day from 8am - 4pm, limping along with my new baby.

What about in December when the kids are on holiday?

This is not what I call restful, NO.

Just the fact that my kids are with me all day every day makes it a tough time of year. Add in family visiting and all that chaos too, nope no rest.

Add in the fact that I keep working, just at night when everyone has gone to bed.... hahaa rest?

So when do I rest?

So like well never really... except when I burn out a little and I can't go on anymore then I lie in bed and stare at the wall wondering why I am not Super woman!

So what happened this last week?

Strangely enough I rested. I wasn't burnt out or even a complete emotional wreck. I just decided to stop going on for a little bit.

I decided to just not work so hard. I published no new content, I stayed at home and rested.

How strange it felt.... 4 days of rest. Nice one.

How did that work for me?

Really really well actually. I highly recommend it!

Not only do I feel refreshed, but I had some great ideas that just popped into my head..... I'll share some of them with you in a few minutes!