A sad goodbye :(
Friday 25th September 2020 our worlds crashed yet again, we had to say goodbye to our fur baby Mini Schnauzer Jazzabell, only 9 months ago on Monday 13th January 2020 we lost our fur baby Mini Schnauzer Dakota and now we have lost our Jazzabell we have no doggies to greet us at home :(
To say im a mess and not coping is an understatement. I find writing it down helps in a wee way but i really don't know what to do with myself - it's too hard :(
My 3 year old Kyra has been amazing with her endless caring and cuddles but of course her questions "Where's Jazzabell?" and "Jazzabell, when are we picking her up from the doctors?" etc are hard to take - shutting the gates behind us in case Jazz gets out - but we don't have to watch the gates anymore :(
This year seriously just can't get any worse if it tried - my health condition is still an unknown as i've had more MRI's and tests, their even looking at the possibility of my heart! - yeah too true it's broken!
My eye has dropped even more and they are still focused on the lesion in my brain how it may all be linked with the headaches and tiredness too?? Now with all the crying my eye has swollen so badly im having trouble seeing out of it.
I recently just got a whole lot of customers from a groomer from the suburb aboyt 15mins away as she is off sick until November and my goodness i've had nothing but trouble! Behaviour, severe matting, biting - heck Hubby and i have never been bitten so much! Unfortunately it's these ones that have caused undue stress on our business as because of the state this lady's dog came in and constant moving i nicked the dogs eyelid of course i didn't mean to i would never intentionally! The dog was fine about it, no bleeding at all until later that night the owner rang saying she had to do a heap of stuff and the citizens advice berau called it negect and abuse we have to foot the bill!! Errr i don't think she realised it was HER neglect that caused the dog to be incredibly matted in the first place!! Anyways more stress had from another groomer so Hubby and i have decided we are no longer taking on that groomers dogs!
I'm in mixed worlds as to what to do about my career now and my website!? It's all about doggies and dog grooming and keeping a happy dog healthy etc lots of facts and fun things to read about life stories etc but now i have no dur baby doggies to share photos of - i feel like a fraud now i have no dogs yet i look after them - stupid i know but i just need to let it out.
Im starting to write a new post about Rainbow Bridge to help and also to help others in their beloved darlings passing - it will never be easy but hopefully i can try get through a day without crying soon - i have a full week of grooming starting tomorrow but also having to fit in the ones i had to postpone due to Jazzabells passing so it's a busy week ahead but i have the thoughts of my customers with me who have been really understanding - heck if they were too focused on getting thier dog groomed and not taking into account the heartache we're going through i don't think i would want them to be my customers!
So it's pouring with rain today so it's not easy to head out but all we want to do is get out of the house - just doesn't feel like home anymore - please tell me it will get better.............
Jazzabell 26/4/05 - 25/9/20 and Dakota 21/3/06 - 13/1/20
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I am so very sorry for the loss of your beloved Jazzabell. The loss of a loving dog is often harder than losing a human. I hope you can take comfort in the wonderful memories you had together. Grief takes time, but there will be a day when the memories will bring a smile to your face instead of tears. I wish you much strength to get through this difficult time. 💕
I'm so sorry for your loss. :( And the difficult times. It will get better. You'll get new dogs eventually. And I hope they figure out your health issues quickly.
Paula
sorry for your lost, beautiful dogs