I'm so mad at myself.grrr;

Yep , I'm really cross with myself, after committing to yearly premium membership here at W/A, I merely go and do the 1 thing that I advise others not to do.

I came across a problem ( I'm not even sure what the problem was now ), and instead of tackling it and trying to solve it or ask questions in here, I went and hid, and now after about three months of wasted time not doing anything on my website or not pushing on with the training, I find myself asking, what are you hiding from ?, what are you avoiding ?, and honestly, I have avoided it for that long, I have forgot what it was, how crazy is that ?.

If I am really being honest, I have been suffering, yes suffering,....from shiny object syndrome, looking for the next thing to move on to, and why,???? All because I came across a problem that I didn't know how to fix.

I have been hoping things will change, but how can they when I've not changed , I find myself doing the same damn thing that has kept me where I am, instead of doing things a little different and maybe having the chance of taking me where I want to be.

There's just one subtle difference this time, and that is , I have recognized it , I am aware of it, which brings me here writing about it, therefore taking action to put it right.

Time to roll up my sleeves, pull up my big boy pants, and get right back in there.

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See the truth is , I don't realize what I've got here, well I do when I really sit down and think about it.

I used to enjoy writing, that was many years ago and I never ever tried to develop it.

So to be sat here with an opportunity to develop my creative side and not be taking full advantage of the opportunity is not on, it's almost a crime ( I said almost.)

So I sat there and asked myself, what are you going to do? are you in, or are you out ?..... I,m in,BUT, I can't keep doing this. After analyzing my actions, or lack of action, the conclusion is..... I could have done this a much better way.

Even though I have been off the scene my time has not been completely wasted , I have picked up some good tips along the way ,I have also done some soul-searching, and the results I get and the answers that I come up with, bring me right back here to my happy place Wealthy Affiliate.

There is a bigger picture here, there's a story to tell. We all have a story to tell, but how many get the chance to really tell it. THAT'S WHY I, M SO MAD AT MYSELF.

I have the perfect opportunity to tell my story and maybe make a difference and I'm wasting it.

NOT ANYMORE.

Time for some tough love.

Got to be harsh on myself, spell out what needs to be done, stop thinking about it and take some action. I started this journey quite some time ago, so it feels like I have been at it for a lifetime, lol.

First things first, lets get back to the training and the video's, lets pick up where we left off, and most important of all, lets make some progress.

So in conclusion to this post, I hope to achieve two things.

1. The kick up the backside that I needed to get myself motivated and back into the driving seat.

2.The vision and motivation for others who may find themselves in a similar situation, to evaluate the situation and take steps (,even if they are small steps) to make amends and carry on with the project in hand.

I hope you all have a good week, especially at these unprecedented times that we find ourselves in at the moment