A decision to pick myself up!
I woke up to the sound of the alarm on my cell phone. With a groan, I heaved myself out of bed and made my way downstairs to start a pot of coffee. I tried to tell myself that I was happy and grateful for the $16/hr Customer Service job I had been been working at for the last 15 months. However, this particular morning I just could not shake the dull throb of dread that seemed as if it was going to completely devour my soul.
I had been going back in forth in my head for the last couple of months, desperately trying to justify why I should be grateful for my job and feeling that I had to just be "flawed" , because no matter how many times I was told I should be grateful, it was a monumental task to squeeze even the tiniest drop of fulfillment from what I was currently doing.
I was working as a Customer Service Rep for a well known Insurance company. I was the top agent. I exceeded the quarterly bonus requirements, receiving the highest tier bonus every quarter. I came to work and gave 110% every day. I really was grateful for the opportunity to provide an income to feed my family of 5. It was embarrassing to bring home checks which grossed 1200$ bi-weekly and after Insurance and Child Support payments I was bringing home 450-500$, less than 1,000$ a month.
With all this racing through my head, I just collapsed internally. I could not bring myself to set another foot inside that building. I kind of "imploded". I never went back. I fell into a deep depression, I felt inadequate and very much overwhelmed by my life circumstances. I was 38 yrs old and had been living this for my entire adult life. I was just internally done. Three months later, I demanded of myself to climb out of the deep, dark pit that I had descended into. There had to be a better way, if there wasn't I was going to make one! I promised myself that I would never settle or accept this for myself again. That come hell or high water, I will create a life of abundance and financial independence for myself or die trying!
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Great post, Jeremy! You have an ease of writing that is engaging and conversational, and which will serve you very well. See, you're already off to a great start!
Hi Jeremy and welcome to Wealthy Affiliate
Thank you for sharing your story and I understand how the corporate world can batter us as I too have been there.
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It will take time as all great things do but if you work at it with goals and times, you will achieve success, of this I am sure and if we can help you with questions you have please ask. The training, however, covers everything so get into it and start rebuilding who you deserve to be my friend
Vicki
You have made a decision Jeremy that you can’t backtrack.Commit to your family ;also that they now have something that will satisfy all of their needs and all of their wants. You are the head of your family so it is up to you. I think that your family is in good hands; yours!