It's possible to want it more than anything, but have lack of motivation.
I deal with depression and anxiety which keeps me consistently exhausted. I haven't done the WA training in over a week and I feel extremely guilty, sad and a myriad of other over-exaggerated feelings. I just had $20 randomly plop out of the sky (Read: My mom's hands) and into my lap.
None of that makes sense after the first sentence, does it? Sometimes we fall off the wagon, and I'm going to continue training after I finish this post so I should feel better immediately, right? I wish. There's definitely an inkling of non-trust in myself, even when my confidence is at it's peak. In my good times, I'll refer to this as being humble but in the mood I'm in now.. it's an issue that needs adressing.
"I AM PROCRASTINATION, HEAR ME ROAR!.... later. After I eat my quesadilla and take a nap."
Okay, so maybe mine or yours isn't that agressive most of the time. I know there's someone else in my boat who feels like they just aren't doing enough, even though they've just gotten started. If I'm not working on my buisness everyday I feel like I'm not working at all. While this is definitely the work ethic I've been dreaming of, it can get me sad pretty quickly and very discouraged fast.
To combat this, I have to give myself a chance to calm down before I start my work.
A chance to forgive myself for not meeting my own standards, and let my hard work take me into being a better person (for my own standards). I can't MAKE myself a better person, I can't TALK myself into being a better person, I must WALK into being a better person! Running just leaves me out of breath, unable to talk and missing quite a lot of things (Metaphorically of course- I literally love running!). Worry just leaves me with a heart on the brink of extinction and hands either empty or too full to function.
When I take this time for myself, I'm still believing that I will do better. I still have full faith and it's very helpful self-encouragement that not only helps me reach my goals but keeps me happier and healthier. If you have been feeling slumped or like you're in your own way, believe me, that couldn't be further from the truth. Try being a little more gentle and forgiving of yourself, leaving more room to work on your online buisness instead of chipping at what's already a revealed diamond.
You are harder than what's hard for you, and I just want to remind you that YOU deserve the love YOU deserve from yourself as well as others. Whether that love is support on your buisness, support on your health, support on your endeavors, a combination of all 3 or something else!
Ah... it feels good to be blogging again.
Peace out loves! I'm on my way to some hardcore entrepreneur workouts! ;)
May today and the rest of your week be wonderful and your relationship with yourself be peaceful,
Elaina
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Hi Elaina. love the honesty, love your authenticity.
Well done on getting through your blog and publishing it.
Every step no matter how big or small is forward motion. Pat yourself on the back for a job well done. It was more than just a blog, it was a stepping up for self!
You did great! And like you said be gentle and forgiving to yourself.
Takes courage to take a step forward when you not feeling great.
You Did It!
Well done to you.
Hi fiving you now hehe
Woohoo.
Di :)
Hey Di! Thank you, I try to show it even if it doesn't look all happy go lucky like I want it to lol. Thank you, yes it indeed is! Your recognition of the value of making strides fills my hopeful heart with joy, thank you.
Hey Elaina
I went through very similar things but had no one to talk to so I internalized it which wasn't good. You sound like you have a good support system in place and that is very important. If you ever need to talk to someone just PM me anytime. I will be glad to help however I can.
Tried and True
Elaine
Elaine,
I do the same! It's so tempting and so hard to shake especially with a culture of doing everything on your own, no "we" in team mentality in society today. I do, I just need to connect with others more. I'm very social but I'm fighting the urge to isolate myself always. It's a neverending struggle with wanting to make sure everyone feels welcomed but also wanting to drift off into my own quiet for a long time. Thank you
Hi Elaina
What a truly honest share - thank you. I can only say to you. Break your day into chunks and work when you feel ok, rest when you need to and remember you are a unique and beautiful soul who deserves greatness
If you ever need to, please private message me as I am here for you
Go easy on you
Vicki
Hi Vicki,
Thank you! I will try to do that, I want to go go go so badly but I know I need to slow down or else I freeze and get overwhelmed with tiredness. Thank you, I will remind myself as much as possible of this. You are as well Vicki, I hope you remember it as well.
I swear your words are my feelings that I could not explain myself. Thank you for the post and to know that a different way of thinking and a little more forgiving of myself can make be the jump start I need to meet my goals. Thank you Elaina, this came just in time!
Hey Melani!
Love, I must have just came out of your head haha. I'm glad I could verbalize it for us both, I do believe that kindness is the best kindling for even the greatest of fires within a strong entrepreneur and leader. Thank you for sharing that this was timely, makes me even happier for both of us that I mustered up the strength and wrote it! You will reach those goals, don't give up!
With Love,
E
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You are authentic ! That is an accomplishment many do no achieve. We want to be true to our selves but.... You are true
to yourself even if overly critical.
You also have stick-to-itness! It is hard to let go! To feel the freedom to create.
There is courage in your striving. Maybe it is the road, not the steps that give us courage, the rainbow.
You are beautiful. I hope you learn to feel it.
Thank you Janet, I really appreciate your analysis and it helped cheer me up. Today has been rough but just a little phrase from your comment has smoothed and soothed very much... "Maybe it is the road, not the steps that give us courage, the rainbow." Thank you... slowly but surely. I hope your day is going wonderful.
Elaina