Conversations to Self in a Crazy Month

Yippee and Hooray, it's One Month Today! Not quite a poet's line but it'll do for now. I'm not usually given to celebrating the passage of time but today happens to be one month from when I joined WA.

And what a crazy month it has been. In part because after 4 days of joining and getting to know followers and those who followed me and really liking what I was experiencing. The camaraderie of the group, reading people's blogs, of those followed, plus the helpfulness of everyone and being just blown away.... I then I had to go interstate for ten days and on my return I said to myself "I wish I had never gone away" I had lost that valuable momentum which I had built up in only 4 days before I left and so the second half of the month has just been a turbulent, crazy, Topsy turvey, mind altering, jumble of positive and negative thoughts and emotions. Thoughts that said "I can't do this, maybe I should quit WA. Thoughts that also said I should stay".

"Chucking in the towel is too easy!" "Yeah,maybe, but, this is doing my head in!" Thoughts that said "You have always wanted a website for your work, here's your chance"! "Yes, maybe, but I have never attempted it 'cos I'm too scared to get it wrong. It's gotta be right, it's gotta look great and professional and besides I don't know a thing about designing websites". "So what? The course is going to show you how to do all that. "Yes, but what happens if I don't understand something? I have always hated putting my hand up in a class to ask questions."

"Oh, rubbish.You can ask anybody here anything. All you have to do is click on that white pen icon in the black square on your profile page and scroll down to the end where it says: 'Ask a Question'. It goes out to all those people you are following and who are following you" "Choose a classroom which is closest to your question". Instinctively I knew that was right but I still found it so difficult. "What if it's a silly question and no-one answers?" "They will answer and very quickly too because there's no such thing as a silly question here. Everyone here started off as a newbie at some time. Go on, write a simple question about WA or the course, that you don't know the answer to. "Yeah OK, I'll give it a go, here's keeping my fingers crossed". "Uncross them, you will be pleasantly surprised"

Well, I sure was! Answers came flooding in and I was totally gobsmacked and very humbled to be part of such a wonderful and caring community. Their positive reactions to my simple question lifted the veil off years of clinging on to an irrational fear that originated in childhood. WA is certainly a place to grow I can tell you.

Now, come the 1st May I shall be flying and the only thing I will remember about April is the incredible help and generosity I received which has made such a difference. Thank you everyone.