I DON'T CARE. or at least I'm trying not to
Soooo...I just had an epiphany today. I was looking back at some pictures from my childhood and thinking about how if there was any time in my life where I was just plain happy, it was definitely back then. In relation to all of the craziness and difficult times that I have experienced throughout my teen years and during the first couple of years as a young adult, I had been wondering for quite a while what was it that I was missing during all of those struggles, that I had as a child? Now I think it has finally hit me: I did not care. Here is what I mean by that: as a child, the only things that concerned me were making people happy (namely my parents and friends), doing well in school, playtime, using my imagination, and indulging in my curiosity about the world around me. As you grow up, obviously things change. Not only did I gain more responsibilities, but suddenly I found myself caring about little things; what I look like, what others think of me (whether they're complete strangers or otherwise), what I want to do with my life, etc. Once I let all of those things crowd my brain, it only made all of the other trials and tribulations that much harder. Now, do you think little, 5-year old me cared about any of that stuff? NO! It didn't matter! I was just me. So why should they matter now solely because I'm older? Yes, it's important to figure out where you want your life to lead, but some of the other stuff, is really trivial and petty in the large scope of things. So, overall my point is that I believe, in a way, I need to get back to that childlike mindset and re-learn the art of simply not caring. The quicker all of the "mind clutter" is cleared away, the easier it will be for me to move forward with what I want and need to do for myself and my future :)
Anyway, sorry for the rambling! I hope this at least somewhat made sense to someone lol. This also kind of explains why my progress on this site has slowed down. I needed to go "back to the drawing board" a bit on my niche and I think sorting through some personal things (such as this) has helped a lot. My head is a lot clearer and I believe I now know exactly what I want to do with my website. So hopefully I can now go on and progress strongly from here. Thanks for listening!
-Brie <3
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Hi Brie, we all grow up in similar setup whereby everything seems blurred at the beginning but as we grow up the sights get more clearer. That applies to the initial days in WA whereby we feel like newbies and everything looks a massive mountain of good things. it's easy to get mixed up but as we take the lessons and interact with the community, everything gets in place.
Wishing you all the best.
Paul.
Thanks for the feedback! I agree, I think that the more I open myself to communication and getting help from others the better things will be. It's a work in progress for me, but I definitely know this is not something I can go about completely alone.
Hey Brief,
You are absolutely right. I agree that in our youth, there is not much concern with adult situations like bills etc. So yeah, naturally as we grow we realize that there is much to be concerned with.
Getting back into that Child-like, mindset, is a great idea because it frees up the imagination and all that excess clutter is forced to step aside. I'mean glad that you've found that place where you can move forward. Best of luck in All that you set out to do! :)
Best regards,
Linda
Yay! Glad you understood what I was trying to say! hahaha. Thanks a bunch! Best regards to you as well :)
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It is not rambling at all. It is the sound of victory when you won fight number one against your biggest adversary called self. You have released yourself from self created shackles. Even though you had help from peers and others around you, you unknowing took the shackles and chained yourself with it, and used them in most if not all your encounters.
Now you found yourself at a time when you were free of those shackles and threw them to the side. Well done. It is only the beginning of a journey but at least you are moving in the right direction.
Allow that very free to create child to dream again, to dare, to challenge, to demand what is due to that child. The world is yours for the taking Brienna, so take another step towards your throne.
YES to all of this! Thank you very much :)