With a Heavy Heart

Last Update: March 18, 2017

I am not writing this for pity or for WA rank points but just as a means to vent. I have been planning to move to warmer climate and got a move date set with help and everything scheduled. Everything appeared to be ok. As I was preparing to tell my family, my mother goes into the hospital. She was discharged into hospice care. Trying to get her the care she needs, my father goes into the hospital and Dr. has an end of life chat with him.

I am now 1 week from the move date and both parents, on 2 different sea boards, are seemingly on their death beds. I have people in place and equipment rented for the move and I feel like a bad son leaving when all of this is happening. I can not, not go but I feel that I will not ever see my mother again, at least not alive. I do not think that I can get to see my dd on the west coast because of my physical condition. I find myself sighing a lot but trying to stay on course.

Is this like us in WA when we need to sacrifice the money for dues with bills mounting, believing that we are doing the right thing for our selves and families. My normal post would be checked by a couple of software checkers but I just needed to vent, whether anyone reads it or not. So, thank you for taking the time to read this post. I plan to take this time to strengthen my convictions and I hope that you have the same commitment to your goals.

God bless you all.

Bruce

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spurway Premium
Blessings, stay strong. It just might be not the right time for you to move.May the Angels are with you and give you strength.
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BobbyCorno Premium
Praying for wisdom for you as you deal with these difficult issues.
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BBrandt Premium
Thank you
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Marquette Premium
I am praying that you find the strength. You are but one person. Sometimes it seems the load is just too much to bear. You have to think about you. You did not make these plans knowing what the situation is going to be. Sometimes, whatever we do seems to be the wrong decision. Really there are no wrong answers. You do what is right for you. Parents know. It is not just what you do at the very end but what you have shown throughout their time. God knows.I will keep you in my prayers. Nothing is over until God says it is over. Peace be with you.
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BBrandt Premium
Thank you for those kind and encouraging words. I do appreciate the prayers.

Bruce
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MKearns Premium
I feel for you Bruce. God's love be with your family. It's healthy to rant and vent. Don't worry about the takedown police. I think they'll leave your post alone!
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BBrandt Premium
Thanks Mike.
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kmttv12 Premium
I will pray for you and your parents in this difficult time. No one has all the answers except for God. God has given you the strength and conviction and the knowledge to make the difficult decisions. Seek refuge in him.
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BBrandt Premium
Thank you and you are correct. I would not survive if it weren't for my faith in God.
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