What keeps me going every day.
Just before I turned three year old, I wanted to play the violin. I was very fortunate to be given the opportunity to do this.
The gift I got for my third birthday was a violin that I could barely hold! I vaguely remember my three year old self spending hours practicing it.
I am now 25 years old. I don't want to bore you with the details, so to make short of it, I had an experience in school during childhood that gave me PTSD. During my childhood, I was also bitten by two ticks—once in third grade and once a few years later—and got Lyme Disease.
The problem was that I never knew I had Lyme Disease. For more than a decade, I just had this disease developing inside me.
This PTSD/Lyme combination led to me getting every possible label out of the DSM (of course not including PTSD, nor Lyme Disease), all of which were withdrawn at one point or another by the same or a different medical professional.
I just got the accurate diagnosis of Lyme this past September. My father had the best response I could have imagined: "Oh yeah, we knew you had Lyme." More PTSD?!
Just this past week I was able to successfully address my PTSD using EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) and next very next day, I felt the best I have felt in years... I would even say "since I can remember"!
The Lyme detox has had me on a rollercoaster ride of well-being for months and is nowhere near complete, but there is substantially noticeable improvement in regard to the symptoms that for so many years seemed to come out of thin air. During my college graduation, the university photographer snapped a picture of me; my face looked like I was dead.
There is clearly still a lot of EFT work I need to do to fully free myself from my childhood experiences. In some ways, I had an idyllic childhood—and then there is this side of it.
So now to get to the punchline and resolve the mystery of the title of this WA blog post: What keeps me going every day is looking at my violin case every time I exit my bedroom. I purposely leave it in plain sight where I cannot miss the sight of it. If I were to pick it up and tune it now, I would only get a squeak out, if that. But what keeps me going every day is getting and feeling closer to my goal. Closer to my goal of being able to play the violin every day and only get better.
My wife loves the sound of a violin and I am afraid to play it for her. I am afraid because I know I'm just squeaking. I small handful of times I have played something for her, she loved it. But I know what a violin is supposed to sound like.
And soon enough, I will be able to play again. Every day is one day closer.
For my wife. For myself. Every day. That is my real goal here at WA.
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EFT is becoming more and more popular. I'm so glad to hear that you are feeling a lot of relief and wish you continuing success heading in the right direction :)
Thanks, Jude! One of my brick-and-mortar business partners is a certified EFT-ADV practitioner, so breaks at work are often very productive! :)
Great story alpsntacos. I too have had Lyme's disease. I was bitten by something one night in Hyderabad, India. I was bitten on my left ankle and ever so slowly everything on my right side started to shut down. I wasn't in3rd grade or even young (55) but it was miserable. It took me months after I started the cure to be clear of the dreaded disease. People have no idea just how dreadful the disease is. Good luck in your recovery. I feel for you. DAN
Dan,
From what I understand, the older a person is when they get Lyme, the more quickly it sets in, longer it lasts, and harder it is to fight. Glad to hear you recovered! One good thing did come out of this experience for me thought... and that was I was able to identify a significant passion of mine out of necessity. I am interested in a lot of very diverse things, but because the disease was in me for so long, pharmaceutical antibiotics only made it worse... which left alternative and energy medicine as my only option. Which turned out to be something I really enjoy learning about and sharing with the world!
Thanks for taking the time to read and comment!
-Sebastian
Sebastian: I enjoyed your piece very much. Probably because it hit so close to home. Part of my recovery was due in part to antibiotics but part was an alternative medicine out of Germany. I don't think that I could have beat the Lyme disease without it. The serum was something that a lot of alternative "medicine men" use regularly in their practice (so I am told). DAN
Thank you for sharing. I have known people with Lyme Disease and PTSD, but never both at the same time. Glad you are to share with others your journey to good health.
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Thank you for sharing your story.
Thank you for taking the time to read it, Joseph! :)