Feeling Amazed To Be Alive...Life Affirming Moments

byaab123

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Updated 10 years ago

While traveling home from work this morning, My car was clipped on the back corner by an 18 wheeler. When I felt the impact and realized what was happening, My body went rigid and I thought "Oh God I am going to die ". I closed my eyes and said "God please don't let it hurt". I could hear the awful crushing wrenching sounds of metal against metal, I could smell the rubber burning and I could feel things pelting me in the face. Time seemed to slow down and it was as if I had all the time in the world to realize everything that I would be missing. I thought "this is going to kill my Mom and My Sister," I saw their faces in my mind and I thought "Gosh I wish I could have taken Mom to Italy she's always wanted to go. I wish I had learned to ride horses with my sister like she always wanted me to, so that we would have a hobby in common and could spend more time together...I thought I wish I had learned to sky dive and bunji jump like I always wanted to but was too chicken to try...I then felt deep sadness and disappointment over what I felt was a life which wasn't worthy of those that love me...I was certain that my death was imminent, So I thanked God for not letting it hurt and asked him to please take care of family...I awoke in the back of an Ambulance, the first thing I heard was my Mother calling my name begging me to wake up. Once I realized that all my body parts were present and moveable I tried to get up, realized I had a bandage on my head, which did hurt some btw but the pain was not intolerable...I had lil minute scratches everywhere, but still couldn't believe I was alive. I absolutely thought I was dreaming, I was screaming at my Mom that "this is a dream I am dead" I fought to get out of that ambulance and was finally let up enough so that I could see my car....I fell to my knees at what I saw...my car was curved and crushed around the area where I had been sitting...I hit my head against the side rail of the window I am told and had to be cut out of the car....Lots of onlookers at the scene and the hospital seemed amazed that I wasn't seriously hurt after having tangled with an eighteen wheeler at 70 something miles per hour. I was sent home with my Nurse Mother after being cared for at the hospital by some of the same Doc's I had just left off working with...I am shaken still, but I am awfully thankful to be alive and to be able to make some positive changes in my life...I will make this second chance that I have been given count. I will take my Mom to Italy, I will learn to skydive, I will learn to ride horses with my Sister...I will live my life on my own terms and I will start right here at Wealthy Affiliate. I learned today that this life could be a short ride and it could be gone without warning. Therefore I Commit myself to the following: I will make meaningful memories with those precious to me, I will endeavor to live every day like it may be last, I will not give in to fear ever again, and I will not let fear steal my joy in life or my sense of adventure. Wealthy Affiliate Community I Am Committed and determined to do this thing...Lets take this ride together...What do you Say ?

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