Why Does Doubt Come So Easy?
I'm on level 2, course 10 in the training and writing a blog is one of the tasks. The suggestion was to discuss our progress, successes, and our near future goals.
There's one part of me that is very happy with my progress. It's the part of me that gets excited every time I see my site and every time I complete another lesson in WA. It's the part of me that can't stop thinking of the possibilities. It's the part of me that sits with hope and lets my imagination run free.
Then there's this other part. You know the one, I know you do. It's in all of us. Not necessarily to the same degree... but it's there. Itching and scratching for a chink in the armor. Waiting at every turn to darken any hope, or tell me that I'm wasting my time. It's the part that uses words such as impossible, too much, not enough, never, and stupid. It is: Fear, Doubt, Insecurity, Dread, Anxiety.
Why does doubt come so easy? It seems that the dark part of me has more space rented out in my head than the light part and that I'm constantly battling this side of myself.
So while I can say I am happy with my progress so far, I guess only a portion of me is telling the truth. But hey... a portion is better than none...so I'm going to hold onto it for dear life.
Oh yes... and Kyle suggested talking about our successes. Hmmmm, well there have been so many little ones along the way. Each step in the process has been a success. I LOVE the teaching format that WA has chosen. I love having a task checklist...it's the way I work best. So each time I complete a task or a lesson I feel successful. I'm sure it's obvious to most that that is the whole point, but still...it's pretty genius. Kudos to Kyle and Carson.
And then there's my 3 and 6 month goals. It would be cool if I was making even a little bit of money in three months from now. I have no idea how long this process takes at the speed that I'm working, so it's kinda hard to say. I may be way off the mark. In another 6 months I would love to be making enough to buy myself a car. LOL. I don't have a car right now and winter has pretty much hit where I'm from. My lovely morning bike rides to work that used to leave me smiling and feeling good are now torturous and brutal. I'm a tiny person and I don't do well in the cold.
So anyhoo... that's where I'm at in a nutshell.
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