Being a mom brought me to my spiritual awakening and gave me joy I never knew before
Love It, Live it and Laugh about it .
Hi my name is Jessica
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I named my blog , after my daughter Taylor Marie , she is what makes me smile laugh ... and cry . She also has helped me return to writing . I am in the perfect place ... no longer searching for something better . I can appreciate what I HAVE NOW .
Reading to Taylor and watching movies and playing with her and going to the park are now things i look forward to . Watching her learn and teaching her , spending time with her .
She sits with me as I write , and she brings her books to me to read to her . I think how can this be something that came from me .
Being a mom is a blessing for me .
I was caught up with , ME before , what I wanted and what I needed , what I looked like , what others thought of me . It was all about me . I never even knew what I wanted or needed or what I could accomplish . I was walking around blind in a sence . I was confused by media , I was confused about , myself .
I struggled with this idea , that I had to look a certain way act a certain way ... well that is all garbage . That is the midset of a person who is stuck and trapped in a prison and that prison my friend is your mind .
It is so powerful ... that you have to prove to yourself and your mind that you are breaking through those bars and chains that are holding you back .
How to get their is another thing . I prayed . i Spent lots of time away from people . I spent time getting to know myself and working on what I love to do what I am passionate about . I made that my focus . I grew what I loved .
I love to write and I love to learn and I love to be around people i know truly love me . With doing this . My life change . I was brought to a place of realization .
Yes some of those things are still important to me , but Tay is more important to me .
My affliction was gone . It blew my mind ,
And knowing Jesus Christ as my personal Saviour has made the most lasting all-round impact in my life.
I have become a better person a better mother , I feel less anxiety about my looks and what other's think .
All those things held me back before , now I am moving forward and I know my future is bright .
I will never let anyone blow out my flame to make theirs brighter .
I think I was so confused about that , It has been all about me since I was a baby . Now this is all new to me .
I have grown over the last 20 months , I have done things I never thought I could do .
It is by god's grace that we can have baby's it is truly amazing and shocking .
My labour and deliver were not easy ... I will spare you all the details . Let's just leave it at that .
Any ways Tay is 20 months now , she is turning into a wonderful toddler , she is so funny and loving and fun . She was an easy baby , but the adjustment was not easy ... I had never even changed a diaper before Taylor was born .
One thing is for sure my mom deserve 's more than a card on mother's day ... Now that I know what I know , I have appoligized to my mom several times.
Oh the things I put her through . I can only imagine .
She has always stuck by me no matter what . she shared the love of Christ with me as a little one and that protected me throughout my younger days . I now understand what she did as a mother for me . There is no amount of money I could ever give her to thank her .
i just want to be able to return the favor and look after her one day .
She told me something the other day ... " I did the best I could do at the time ."
It does not get any better than that .
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We try as parents. I believe we are only given the children as a kind of loan...to raise and release. We have to teach them to be all they were created to be....at least to be aware of the choices. That they have a creator and a greater purpose and they should strive for that purpose. That purpose does not revolve around them..it is a purpose of service to others. Everyone has gifts and they are there to be used for service to others. I believe that most sincerely and I tried to teach it. My children seem to have "gotten it." (I should say "our children." So you keep on track and you will be rewarded. Nice post.
Your mom was right. Many times us parents only do the best we can with what we know and what we have. Just love Taylor, be there for her and she'll be just fine.
That was a beautiful blog Jessica, You must be a great mom, Say hello to Taylor Marie for me:)
I agree with what your mother told you. That is all a parent can do, just do the best that you can do. That also applies in other areas of your life, and with help from above, you shall always be feeling loved.
Thanks for sharing your story. Best to you and your daughter. Allyn
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Always know that you are wonderful in God's eyes and so He blessed you with your great little bundle. You will teach your daughter things that you might forget as she grows into a young woman. She will remind you of these things as she aspires to be what God has made her. When she reminds you of these things, you will wonder "did I really teach her all of that?" It will ring true just at that very particular moment just how Awesome you really are! (I can read it in your post) Take care and enjoy all of her little life cause big life comes really fast and you wonder where all the time went. I have really enjoyed reading your posts. You are a great author! Have you tried Ezine yet?