It is time to write

How do I know that? because my rankings are going up, or down as you wish to see it and I admit I am a poor blogger in WA. I can write, i can blog, so what's the problem? Sharing! that is such a problem for me. Not sharing about things i know well but sharing about myself. The thoughts are: Who can be interested in what I've to say?. They'll think I'm stupid or arrogant. I know where it comes from,it comes from a very strict upbringing and a father who was always criticizing me for not being good enough. Even when I think about it I can feel the tears.

It is so important to give a child support and encouragement. Mt whole life I´ve been looking for love and approval, it has brought me also into very difficult situations, like making me very vulnerable and naive. . Luckily I´m very aware of it now and so I´m sharing... about my beautiful grandson, 9 weeks old.

Monday they left for the Carribean again, my daughter, her husband and little Nash. they had to get up early. I was still lying in bed as my daughter gave me Nash. He laid beside me, all happy and content staring at me intensely with a little smile. I looked in his clear eyes, wondering what i would see.

There was nothing... nothing at all, except it was pure being, pure NOW, it was so amazing! I was so touched. This is a gift I´ll remember for a long time.