"Bipolar Depression Brain" Constant conversations in the head!
Negative thoughts about prior experiences pop into my head, then the conversing starts in the mind about that bad experience or situation all day everyday...
People around me like friends and family are very often approaching me about being a very quiet person. People do not understand how the bipolar brain works. Sometimes even after you have been medicated 'IT' does not stop. I will now explain what 'IT' is...
Endless internal self talk
*When something goes wrong, When things did not work out the way you planned, others negative opinions, an argument with a person and when I dont get treated right that is when I have coversations in my head all day everyday.
Negative thoughts
The thoughts about what happened will pop in my head or the previous experience I have had, My mind then generates a conversation that lasts for hours about the same experience over and over again. At this point, other people see this as me being retracted or in my own 'world'.
Efforts to Silence my thoughts and conversations in my head:
- I go to GYM
- I Meditate
- I Pray Harder than usual
- I try to overcome my thoughts and read books
- I Sleep healthy hours, thats when I am medicated and can stop my mind from racing negative thoughts or worry.
- I go out into nature and just relax or speak to someone who understands about what is happening at that point in time in my mind.
- I Focus on my career and I study.
As a person with mental health disorders, besides a phsycologist, you MUST have a person that loves you, understands you and can be spoken to about the stuff that goes through your mind, the negative thoughts, the self doubt, the conversations in your mind, the way people treat you (friends, family and the public), and someone to literally explain all this too and more. That person does not have to be a spouse, it can also be a friend with no blood relation, a sibling you can trust, a cousin whose your favourite (I know I have one :) ) and or your parents.
I wish members who see this post can share this post, so that all people with or without Bipolar disorder can chirp in their experiences and thoughts in the comments :)
Thank you
Shaistha
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Awesome Shaistha
I enjoyed reading your post very much. It's great that you are sharing your own experience for us to understand what Bipolar people go through.
Even though I am not Bipolar. In the past, I experienced negative thoughts and self-talk that sabotaged almost everything that I attempted to do.
Without support from family or friends, I overcome these problems by myself through self-help resources.
How to start was to replace my negative self-talk with positive self-talk. At first, it was extremely difficult for me to do, Once I started catching myself thinking negatively it became much easier for me.
It is possible to overcome this negatively sabotaging your goals and life. I am not saying it is easy to do, but it is possible.
Jeff
I am happy to hear that you actually overcome all of this negativity on your own without help from anyone. It would take a really strong person to do this. I dont think I can do that but I will try.
Thank you so much for your insights.
Hello Shaistha
It took me way too many years on my own. I wish to mention the internet was the key to resources for my mental health recovery
Take care
Jeff
Yes their many posts that will help you. Tips from others like my posts also. The internet does me good too
Great to hear, Shaistha
I hope more people use the internet to improve their health instead of spending way too much time on Facebook
Happy to meet you
Jeff
Lol me too, Facebook wastes time rather research and educate yourself.
Nice to meet you too.
Shaistha, your openness about bipolar depression is both courageous and enlightening. Your coping strategies and emphasis on a support system are crucial reminders. Thank you for sharing your journey. 💙 #MentalHealthAwareness #SupportMatters
Ginerik
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Hi Shaista,
I am not bipolar, but I certainly have mental challenges in that I've got to get rid of some of the negative beliefs in my conscious mind and replace them with positive ones. My present wife is bipolar and the swings are hard to work through. Just this past year we were separated for 4 months, but back together in June. She will not go for help so I just try to talk about how to change our beliefs and study psychology for both her and my sake.
Psychology is changing as fast as technology so there are already a number of really good ways to approach mental problems. I am more positive at 80 years old that I can still change beliefs I have deep in my subconscious mind.
Try to keep as positive as you can and start reading some relevant books. I'll send you a couple that have helped me.
With gratitude,
Roger
Thats interesting... I am glad that you guys overcome your thoughts wih positive ones. For me it is not easy but you can share some books with me :)