Help Me . I've Fallen And Must Get Up!

Well, my ranking numbers have taken a bit of a nosedive.....wonder if it's because I haven't posted anything? Maybe that lack of visiting lately? Perhaps the minimal comments? hahahaha

Just a 'check-in'.....this time of year is still hard for me.....I had to release my baby sister from a coma a few short years ago on December 5.....Thanksgiving Day was the last 'live' day she had and it was so joyous and full of love. She was supposed to come home from the hospital's rehabilitation before Xmas of that year; the day after Thanksgiving I got a call to rush to the hospital....somehow she had a 'spell' while eating and fell off her bed hitting her head HARD in 3 places before hitting the floor....30 minutes of CPR before she reached the main hospital and she was in a terminal coma.

Needless to say, I went into deep depression. This year I am doing better at my resolve of working on what was to be our 'joint effort' online....but this time of year is just hard to take. She LOVED the holidays and even though she was wheelchair bound, we would go for evening rides to take in the lights, etc.

Recently, I almost was unable to renew my annual membership and if it wasn't for the compassion of Kyle giving me an extension...well I don't want to think about it. My gratitude for this opportunity also got me pondering on how ungrateful I was being by not giving more effort online.

So here I am, off the 'pity pot' .... yes, I am depressed beyond belief .... but this venture was important to my sister and gave her hope. How dare I dash that hope.

I truly wish all Happy Holidays.....even if one does not necessarily celebrate the 'holiday', one still shares in the joy of the festivities and special feelings people let out this time of year.