Good Days, Bad Days

Introduction

Good Evening to all you wonderful people at the Great WA Family, as always do so hope that you are all keeping both safe and well.

The title says it all, some days I have been fine in mourning the loss of my wife, other days I have hurt like I have never known that it was possible to hurt.

The Last Few Days

As you ca imagine I have had a lot to do since my last blog. Hope that I do not repeat myself too often , with the result that I bore you all too sleep.

My daughter and I have submited some sixty plus photographs for the order of service, we have seen the proof and apart from a couple of snaps it really is lovely, thay have made a fantastic job of showing different aspects of Yvonne's life.

Today I got my daughtrer to print out the reading that I have to do, for those who know their Bible it is a reading from the Gospel according to St.John, Chapter One, various verses.

Not too difficult, it is November since I last read from the Bible at a service, but hope that all those years that I did so will stand me in good stead.

Some days I feel reasonbly all right, getting on with what needs doing, even done a little gardening, other days it has been far too cold too venture outside. Also I have felt far too tired, just cannot shake this feeling of tiredness all the time.

I have managed to sort out the dining room where Yvonne was as they have taken the bed and all the other bits and pieces that they provided, making the dining room into a hospital ward. Must confess that it has helped as i was expexting to see Yvonne in bed every time that I went in there.

It is still very hard not having her here anymore, suppose after fifty five years it is going to take more tha a couple of weeks to realise that she is not coming back. It is helping that she has not been here since early November, but not a great deal.

I have had some wonderful sympathy cards, in some cases from people who have surprised me with their messages, very kind and thoughtful.

A few weeks ago I had an invitation to the Chair of the Council Annul Dinner, it is something that I have not be able to attend for a longtime, a Councillor who I have known for many years, when he heard of Yvonne's passing said that I should attend as it would do me good. Thought long and hard and have decided to go, not sure if I am doing the right thing or not, an always can leave early if I get upset. It is not until the end of March, as it is formal, black tie etc, it is the sort of function that I did used to enjoy attending.

It has been a while since I last wore my dinner jacket, just hope that it still fits!!

Did make the effort to look at some work, but do not have the heart or energy ate the moment, no doubt I wll get there eventually.

The Next Few Days

This will be concentrating on preparing my self for the funeral on Wednesday at 1300. I just hope that I can be stong for the family and they for me.

It is no use pretending what I hope to achieve, because the answer is not got a clue.

On that note:

Be happy, healthy and wealthy.

Please do stay,

God Bless

Stuart