Day 14 to 30 at WA - Massive Sorting Out of Who I am

Missing In Action

I have been away doing deep soul searching of what I wanted out of the rest of my short little life here.

I have been going through a lot of experiential journey for the last 42 to discover about myself.

I have been spending the last 2 weeks reflecting on myself. Getting to know who I am and what do I really wanted to do going forward.

Fail to plan means Planning to Fail

Not everyone will agree to the above title about planning, but this works well for me. I do know soemtimes our plan will takes some detour along the way however having a plan just give me that added direction in life.

I used to hate when my plan doesn't work out but now I learned to accept whatever happens to me happens for a good reason. There is no bad or good happening but my journey to go through. A learning process for me to contribute that little part of me in this world.

There is no Perfect Time for everything

Another bigh revelation moment in life as I reflect back, is I always wanted to be a perfectionist and time for the best moment. Over the years I did achieved a lot of top moment in various aspect of my life. As I look back, it just means a part of my journey not my destination.

I always thought reaching a certain goals in life means I am successful or being significant. Then I realise deep inside I still feel empty regardless of how much I have gained in wealth or any material attainment.

Well I try getting those goals and attaianment because of what people around me perceive as successful or good and getting it means a lot. And then again I lost myself trying to get those what people thought is great. I am not being myself and eventually not happy.

I sabotaged myself after attaining those so call success and give up everything I attained. I just feel unhappy and felt like being imprison being the social pressure.

Belief

I learned now that I have to start being me and do the things that makes me happy and belief that living the life that I am borned to be.

Doing the things I like and sharing my interest to people that like the same things that I do.

It is definitely not an easy journey ahead just as any great journey begins with every single step day after day. Mistakes after mistakes.

I told myslef that "I gotta be willing to take the hit in life and keep moving forward".

Certainly feels good to let it out of my chest.

Thank you reading up to this far.

Let's do it.

Cheers