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bymruano83

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6 years ago

I haven't done any sort of blogging or journal entry writing in forever, so here goes..

I'm a usually quiet and pretty reserved person when it comes to opening up about what goals i want to set for myself and to try to do things and accomplish things without anybody's help. It has been that way for me for as long as I can remember. I tend to be very stubborn on wanting to finish things on my own without asking for anyone's help. The outcome of that 9.98 times out of 10, is me taking one step forward and then two step backwards -- It doesn't pan out to how I want things to be. It is something that is affecting everyone I love around me because I tend to take out my frustrations or show frustrations out on them and, that is not cool and very unhealthy.

But now as I am grow older, I am beginning to realize -- perhaps I do need some hand-holding. More now than ever before. I've always wanted to venture out to learn new things, new abilities, and see what else is out there so I can begin to succeed, and not procrastinate that "oh, i'll do this tomorrow" or "oh, i wont be able to do this because [insert BS reason here]" and start providing for my family and give them what they actually deserve. For my wife and kids? a beautiful home. for me? a nice garage space to work on my favorite hobby - cars. for my wife? a renewal of our vows at disneyland. But the number one for me is becoming debt free finally, and becoming financially stable.

So now that I have ventured into this new road that I have found, hopefully I can make these dreams a reality finally and give my family what they really deserve. Lets get to work.

lates.