Fought off3NOT sober attackers friday night, woke ME up2The URGENCY of NOW!
IN NO WAY DO I ADVOCATE VIOLENCE OR INFLICTING HARM ON OTHERS PHYSICALLY OTHER THAN SELF DEFENSE OR PROTECTING YOUR REALITY IF NEED BE> The smallest one all of a sudden charges me and his 2 buddies follow in pursuit. My first instinct is I can out run them(FLIGHT) but a split-second of thinking reveals im in my hood&don't want2go near my home or street. SooOo I analyze his drunken blitz and get some momentum and BOOOOOOM! MORTAL KOMBAT (im Johnny Cage) ensues... I drop the maybe5'5 150lb slot wr like Ed Reed on a shallow skinny post over the middle circa 2003, he's out cold(he later staggers off )but right away his 2homeys are right on top of me& this ain't a movie so they don't take their turn, instead both jumping on me at the same time, I get the gnarly scratch on my 4head from1of them trying to keep me down as I roll out of it somehow and take a few punches 2 the shoulder and chin. Thankfully I got a hard big misshaped head so I don't get any serious blows2the dome and don't got a glass jaw like Joe from Punch out, I get 1clean hit on 1guy and he's staggering as they wreak of booze/bud. SO he's stumbling but it left me open 2 get gut punched by#3and mannn id rather get hit in the face than the wind knocked out of me. Drops me and he tackles me while his bro recovers and jumps in. I just go all wolverine/Blanca and start screaming with all the RAGE I had pent-up for years from being a young father/loneliness/abandonment in youth/unsaid things with my wife/painful regrets/pent up fears/Insecurities and all the other dark matter we store in our core. I just SCREAMMMMM AND CUSS AND SWING AND FIGHT WITH ALL MY ABILITY AND 170pounds soaking sweat of your NOT gonna take this little man away from his family! IT seemed like the 3 of us rolled and swung and kicked and bit and yelled for an hour but looking back it was probably the longest60seconds of My life. Thankfully a group of 5-6people at a nearby party? came2the rescue and threw them off me and saved the day. They got their half conscious slot wr off the turf and ran FASTTTTTT b4 I could even come 2 my senses and let the adrenaline subside. I am not trying2be overly thematic or dramatic , it was the 1st and hopefully last time I fight 3 guys.I pray they are OK bcuz I know they were verrry intoxicated/high (ALMOST5years sober and thankful4GOD&good people2help ME stay focused on The BestME)I instantly couldnt stop thinking about what if I had died or suffered a serious injury or seriously hurt 1 of those 3 20something morons. Oddly I wasn't overly upset at them as I was scared at the thought I could have been seriously hurt because I chose2take a stand4ME instead of Run2safety and protect My families Father/Husband. I felt guilty, odd how becoming a parent and half of a childhood creator will do that 2 you. The people asked If I was OK and I said yep, asked if the3had come from their party and they told me it was a sober magic the gathering party jajaja. Who would have thought some wizards and warlocks would quit game time and come help a fellow citizen in need? (THOSE GUYS AND GAL WERE AWESOME4THAT! I COULDNT HAVE GONE MUCH LONGER B4 I RAN OUT OF GAS,THAT COULD HAVE BEEN MUCH WORSE)I was grateful4their help and quickly thanked them and left the scene before cops arrived. I knew the young guys would not be caught and a police report would take god knows how long and involve me being away from home even longer.Maybe I should have but I felt the injuries werent serious and didnt want in some way for it to maybe get worse.I wasn't in terrible shape and only had the bruise on my right shoulder, a few others, some swelling here and there on my back and a soon2be SAGAT from street fighter2Scar only not as cool when its on My giant4head. Went home, told the wife who was thankful I was OK and Ive spent the last2days now in a daze. Really foggy emotionally and tried over and over 2make progress on WA. Can't stop thinking about the attack and how I could have hit my head wrong or they could have had a weapon or worse. I ultimately let my pride as a "MAN" of "HONOR" overrule the father who could have ran2safety with his former 4.67 40time (STILL bet I could run a sub4.8) and avoided the scar, risk and chaos of that powerful moment. Either way it is what it is and I now am looking4ward. IM STUCK. I don't know how 2 Harness My talents just yet. I KNOW I WILL! I KNOW I GOT THIS! Im just reallllllly struggling to process it all and not let the ADHD get me off task every5minutes to random thoughtville. I can usually harness my ADHD 4 good and extra energy/words and angles 2 approach from the light within. Yet the last couple days have been an emotional WAR with how to figure out my true niche calling (FITNESS?FOOTBALL?WA BOOTCAMP?BLOGGING?AMAZON/INTERNET PRODUCTS VIA YOUTUBE VIDEOS ? HMMM...) SOooOOo many amazing options out there and gr8 people offering diff forms of advice. I just NEED2step into it and JUST DO IT! Usually have no problem attacking problems and obstacles but today this NEW WA opportunity seems so much more challenging than I think it truly is. Call it newbie 1st world problems or just a guy who needs 2 find the right mentor2advise him. IM gonna keep watching videos and working thru it but if Anyone has some ideas2get out of the starters rut id Appreciate it. I don't need a handout or someone 2 hold my hand, id even trade my time or skills in other walks of life for someones guidance. Either way I thank you for hearing My story and I hope I didn't offend anyone or imply violence or chaos is healthy. I simply acted in self defense, chose2engage and luckily wasn't hurt bad and didn't hurt bad I assume. Now I gotta take that experience and the odd therapeutic vibe it gave me and finish processing soon while I find a way to Earn My keep on this site. I have such a Hunger2not work a depressing 9-5, Running MY internet businesses 9-5 or whenever is My dream. Having time with my family during the day and when theyyy need me is what I seek. Retiring my school teacher wife in the next couple few years and providing my2.5year old daughter with her best possible childhood are a couple of (My) big dreams along with starting a non-profit in my late mothers name as I approach her 20 year (11/29/53 Sunrise 8-14-99 sunset) passing would bring such fulfillment. IM on a mission to evolve out of the lack mindset I have at times and the insecurities a Man can get when he feels he's the least important person in a family, day after day. It all can add up for dads who IMO can be the forgotten winners in society. Young dads especially can go either unnoticed or even worse noticed but taken for granted in that they aren't prioritized as much as kids, work,self when it comes to the family dynamic. IM blessed and thankful for My life and am Confident in who I am but I bet many men can relate to having a Queen who doesn't make the King a priority as often as maybe his resume deserves. Either way im thankful for your time, my families love, My health and the abundance of resources here at WA. I hope your having a Stellar Sunday and wish you peace, love & honor!
Respectfully,
Mr. Cobra
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So glad to read you are ok!
Sounds like a miracle to me for sure :)
Thanks for sharing your heart, that's not easy but you are absolutely in the right place to receive unconditional love, encouragement and support from your online family to help you achieve all your goals for your beautiful family.
WA search bar is fantastic for getting help on whatever stage you are at in your training as is live chat.
I often find if I ask specifically which lesson someone is stuck on, it is easier to either explain it a different way that hopefully makes more sense or get a variety of great answers from the community collectively on how they approach the same task uniquely.
So ask away :)
Have an amazing week!
You are a blessed man!
Nicola :)
WOW! WELL SAID NICOLA! I APPRECIATE YOU! I WILL FIND A WAY4THEM, ME AND ALL OF YOU! TILL NEXT TIME BOSS, PURA VIDA!!!!!!!