Earned a badge!
Well, I earned a badge. A dedication badge. For 6 month being a Premium. As much as it should bring joy-it brought mostly a feeling of guilt, a feeling of failure. Yes, apparently I’ve gone Premium with a yearly subscription half a year ago! After being a member for three weeks. That totals in almost seven month! What have I really accomplished in those 7 months? Not much, I must say. I am doing the level 3 of the training, well, finishing it actually, but still, it’s only 3.
What was I thinking? I expected to work two-three hours in the morning, before work, two-three in the evening, after work. I was so sure I’ll be somewhere by this time. I did not mean actually earning, but being on a right path for it in a not so distant future. Having a site full of wonderful content and lots of it. Instead, I published 8 (!) posts so far and one review, which was a task in one of the trainings. I thought I could talk about the niche I chose endlessly, as I am also working in it. Instead I find myself doing all kinds of thorough, long researches before I write even a paragraph. Somehow, I have to be sure any information I put in is absolutely accurate and confirmed from different sources. And it is so time-consuming. Let alone I do not have always the time after work I thought I will and sometimes even the strength to do as I planned. I know I am supposed to take this in my own pace, but, the thing is, I never believed this was my pace! I’m obviously doing something wrong, I just don’t know yet what exactly it is, but I’ll find out. This badge, as much as it was intended to honor me, and I am kind of grateful for it, actually ashamed me, as it clearly shows how little I’ve accomplished in such a long time.
I’m not writing this to seek comfort for my failure, or anything like that. I only had to pour out this awful feeling. Also I needed to make a public commitment to improve my learning pace, and really and truly do my best to add a lot of great content to my site and achieve some real accomplishment recognition.
Thank you for reading and feel free to hold me accountable for what I promised.
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Hi Minaher,
Congratulations on your achievement!
Please, don't be discouraged.
My opinion is that virtually any subject is broad enough for any single person not to know it all.
Beginning of all wisdom being fear of God, second in the line on the path to wisdom is to understand that how little one actually knows of any given topic and accept it.
When we write articles, best what we can do is to offer our own viewpoint to that particular topic with a sincere heart.
Even after several years of experience and countless hours of research we still could write something that doesn't apply to another person's situation because variables in that situation are different than we have ever come to think of.
It is left to the reader to make that final judgment call whether or not information offered in the article applies to the reader's situation.
What has helped me personally to shake of paralysis of analysis is to write as I would talk to a good friend.
In casual, well-meaning conversation with a friend, you wouldn't hold back what you are about to say and run to check for the facts from various sources before you offer your opinion, right?
You being a professional in the topic you are writing about is a pretty good indication that your content will be helpful for many and your experience equips you to write beyond the book wisdom.
Please, don't be too hard on yourself and allow writing to flow, there is obviously a lot stored in you.
Just write freely to your heart's content, and after you have it on the screen, you can choose if you would like to publish it.
If in doubt, sleep over it and reread it in the next day.
You will be surprised how much you actually end up publishing and feeling good about it!
I wish you all the very best,
Aki
Thank you so much for taking the time to write such an extensive and encouraging reply, I appreciate it!
You see, the funny thing is, I'd not call myself a perfectionist otherwise in life, very far from that. Here, for some reason, I feel I owe to the potential readers to provide the best possible and far beyond that, content. I'll obviously have to change my criteria as you very wisely noted, to the best of MY knowledge.
Also, I am otherwise pretty good in writing anything else, essays, poems, novels-you name it. Even my reports are fun to read, people say...but, again, here.... :( Nevertheless, as Louise also said: onwards and upwards...so I might consider your "talking to a friend" approach, It sounds very good.
Thanks again!
All the best
Hi Hermina! 8 posts more than 95% of the population.
Congratulations, on making it to six months. An achievement worth celebrating.
You are doing really well.
Getting into the flow can take time, try getting into writing without so much research if that helps you to speed up to a level that you feel comfortable with.
The cool thing about WordPress is that there is a little button called edit. So nothing to stop us building and fleshing out content.
Best wishes, looking forward to your success, keep us updated.
Alex
Bold and vulnerable to make a public declaration to be much respected.
Self awareness is always a greater step toward success good luck Hermina you got this🧐
It was such an overwhelming bed feeling that I could not do anything with it, but tell everyone. Thank you for your very kind words!
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Congrats on your new badge of accomplishment. I really think you are overthinking on what to write on your blog. The best thing to do is let it flow as you write. Most of my blogs are from my experience. I do use information if needed to back up some of my claims. If you try to be all inclusive, then your blog might look too robotic, and this might give an impression to your visitors that you are not really talking to them. So take it easy and if it takes a week or so to post your new blog, so be it. Eventually it will be published. Wish you the best.