I don't know the question

I'm Deborah and I hope this is the last time I will repeat these words.

I'm a single mom with a dead end job. Every month I have to pick and choose which bills to pay and which ones to not, due to insufficient finances. I thought online business was just what I was looking for to provide a good life for my kids and I. I wasn't expecting to get rich quick and I was expecting to work hard and sacrifice. I was also expecting to see a clearer path from where I am to where I want to be. It seems that many people are able to understand and apply the lessons here at WA. The problem with not understanding is that it makes it hard to formulate questions. I dont know exactly what to ask.

Many here have offered motivational speeches. Well meaning as thet are, its direction that I need. I know I can do it, the problem is I dont know how. If a pile of computer parts were on a table in front of me and a crowd was behind me shouting "you can do it" I would not be able to assemble the computer simply because of the encouragement. I would need instruction, direction, something I could understand.

I can't think of a single thing I have set out to do tghat I have succeeded at. I have a long history of failure. My pattern is to try with everything I have until I believe there's no point in continuing. I really wanted things to be different this time. I'm as hopeful and positive as I know how to be... and I'm still not succeeding.