Changing My Mindset

One of the things that's happened since I started at Wealthy Affiliate is that my mindset has changed and improved.

When I started Wealthy Affiliate, I was so down on myself and really didn't think that much of myself. As far as my self-talk, the less said, the better. I was so horribly negative, and beat myself up every time I appeared to have failed. Even the slightest mistake. I knew I shouldn't have done that, but I couldn't seem to stop myself.

What changed? I started reading self-development books and blog posts. I started questioning my beliefs. I started actively being gentle with myself. I started refusing to talk nastily to myself. It doesn't really help, except for making me feel bad about myself.

There's that part in the Bible where Jesus says to "Love thy neighbor as you love yourself". Well, that's the trick isn't it. We're told to love our neighbor, but not to love ourselves, to have contempt for ourselves, but Jesus didn't really teach that. We need to learn to love ourselves. It makes loving our neighbor a whole lot easier.

He also said he had come to give life and give it more abundantly. This is pretty cool. But what does abundant mean? What is it to live abundantly? Well, I'm still on disability, and I'm working on that, but I think it starts anyway with gratitude to the Creator, however you wish to see HIm/Her/. To be thankful for the smallest things.

I still live in a house. It may be small, but i's still shelter from the elements. I'm grateful for our air conditioner because I can breathe at night and sleep easier.

Do I want more? Sure I do, and I'll get there, but it starts how I see myself first. I'm not perfect., but I'm getting there, little by little. If if I was perfect, I wouldn't be on this material plane. If that I have something to learn, as well as to teach. Right now, with Wealthy Affiliate, I'm learning how to put in the foundations to teach. My future starts with the beliefs and attitudes I have now. If it's actually possible to earn $1000 a month, then $3000 a month and on upward. If that what I do today will be reflected in 6 months, a year, 5 years from now, and so on.

I've also learned that it's OK to want a better life, that even if I have to start over, I don't have to beat myself up for false starts. It's experience, and I can revisit the lessons again, and find things I didn't notice the first or second time. That it goes smoother, that I understand more.

When I think how far I've come, I just feel awe. I start realizing that I made progress when I didn't realize it because I was so close to it. Too close to it and the issue, actually, but it was a small hill, not the impassable mountain I thought it was. I was blinded by my emotions, by my over-reacting, but I'm not doing this every single time like I used to do. I'm actuallty improving.