Epiphany! Yeah, I had one of those! 36 years in the making!

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Updated 8 years ago

Ever feel like you were born in the wrong time? Ever feel like there was just something you were supposed to do but forgot?

Boy, I have! As a child growing up in Southeast Texas in the 1980's - the very tail end of the Xers - I constantly felt as if I was just born at the wrong time. I loved to write and to read. I romanticized about history, turn of the century. I was meant to live then! The simple life, that I was meant to live in a time when humanity was on the verge of something new, something big. Nothing is happening now. Nothing big but the possibility of WWIII. This time sucks!

I knew my place was to write, to put all the complications of life into simple words, descriptions and everyone understand. To help people with words - then after the fall of the Berlin Wall I stared at a TV - that's it! I'm going to be a journalist! Then after becoming a successful journalist I am going to write the Great American Novel!

I feverishly set out to obtain those goals. I graduated from college in 2001 with a B.A. in Communications. I went to work as a reporter from a local newspaper. But as time drew on, I began to feel I wasn't suited for the facts of journalism. I had my own opinions, I had my own voice and damn it - it wanted out! And I like to take my time with a story, have it lavishly dripping with description. Today, nobody has time for that novel!

It was during this time I began to feel less like I was born in the wrong time, rather that I was missing something. I had forgotten something. I'd check my purse, my keys, my phone, my email... everything accounted for but what was I forgetting... What was missing...

I married a soldier and then came war time. Three different 12-14 month deployments - four different duty stations - and a collection of friends both online and in person, at each duty station I collected more and learned more. Research, that became my specialty. One thing any military spouse learns is the only way to ever find answers to questions is to go out and find them yourself.

During those 8 years I affectionately became to my online and personal friends as the "Concierge" - ask Heather - if she doesn't know the answer she can find it for you! From how to navigate the military as a spouse to where's the best Mexican restaurant at Fort Hood - (It's Taqueria on Veterans Blvd in Killeen BTW. ahhh, I still dream of those fajitas!)

I found this renewed joy. I liked being the Concierge. I liked being the girl in the know! I loved discussing life and the frustrations of it with my Sistas! Each conversation - "Can I get an AMEN!" I had a place, I belonged with these women. They were my sisters!

Then the military life dissolved along with the marriage. I moved on. Still something I forgot, something missing...

In 2009, I was diagnosed with remitting relapse multiple sclerosis. The once always reliable girl, johnny on the spot and model employee was replaced by she does a great job, when she's here. Job after job - I'd have a relapse, miss a month of work and then let go. Again, online I found blogs, forums - new crop of "Sistas" to give me that AMEN! And just as before, I took on my Concierge role. Being the girl to ask! But something was still missing... What am I forgetting...

I remarried, had two gorgeous and amazing children. A boy and a girl. Now I'm a member of an even bigger community - the community of mothers! Potty training, breast feeding, diapers, what's the best product after product. I think by now you get where I'm going with this.

I need a reliable way to earn income while being a mother to toddler and pre-schooler and one that won't freak out every time I have an MS relapse. And damn it - what have I forgotten...

Then, while researching potty training methods, job posts and finding my old child-hood journal it hit me. Rushing light of revelation. It was all so simple, how did I not get this sooner. I did it! I found what I had forgotten, what I was missing!

I was born at just the right time, a time when humanity was on the verge of something new. Of course! I witnessed it! The internet. My love of writing, my knack for being the girl that researches and knows. My whit, personality and even my MS -- it's all life! A wise business person once said "Never do anything your good at for free." - OK that's paraphrasing possibly and for the life of me I can't recall whom - but this hit me.

Everyone is on the internet, looking for a solution to life, a solution to a problem be it a new motion light or cell phone or potty training device... whatever - I can be the girl I've always have been, write and make money. What I was missing, what I had forgotten is that it all tied together!

There is no better time to be born a unique soul than right now. There is no better time to make money with "Life" than right now.

Where are my "Sistas and Brothers!"

Can I get an Amen!?!?