Life Just Gets Cluttered

byFiona01

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Updated 5 years ago

Life just gets cluttered and often we lose of track of where we are, to where we want to be

I started on Wealthy Affiliate in the beginning of 2019, but life just got in the way, my mind was cluttered and I was struggling on keeping up with my training, I have had 2 deaths in a short period (3 months), I was struggling with my daily job, I wanted to be free and I wanted to leave, where we call home and travel the beautiful seas, having the life I so truly longed for.

During the week I opened my fridge (on our beautiful 33 Mottle yacht called Ansuko) and peaked inside, what I saw was an absolute mess, it was full to the brim, and I was not sure what lurked at the bottom, all I know is that I just kept closing it, hoping that the overflowing food would disappear, LOL I was not sure how this would happen, as I am the only one who cleans the bloody thing, but I was hoping.

So by Thursday of this week I was exhausted, my mind was spent, my will to go to work was even more depleted, I hated even getting up in the morning, because all I wanted to do was sleep, and if anybody knows about Auto-immune and Hashimoto’s you will get my drift, because people with these disorders want to sleep and sleep and sleep, it's not a normal tiredness, it’s a lack of complete ability to move forward on any level, even if you push yourself, the will to sleep overrides everything.

Whilst sitting in the cockpit with a glass of red thinking about my life, my partner came home, saw I was upset, sat down and listened, like he always does and I cried a river of tears that night and was emotionally and physically exhausted, he knew I was not faking this, told me he loved me and left me on my own to ponder.

Now you are probably wondering why I am writing my story and what this has to do with Wealthy Affiliate, it is to let people know, no matter what stage of learning and training you are in either for WA or your life journey, we all get stuck, life gets cluttered and we lose ourselves, whilst trying to find our feet.

On reflection, I realized in late 2018 I watched as my father’s disease dementia rapidly overtake his dignity, then in early 2019 my dad passed away and then on my birthday a beautiful girlfriend passed away after her long battle with ovarian cancer, so I realized my journey over the last six months had been an emotional roller coaster, one that I had not recovered from, instead I just kept going day by day, putting one foot in front of the other without acknowledging that my life was becoming cluttered.

After my “losing the plot” moment on Thursday, I went to bed early, I slept solidly for the first time in weeks, I woke in the morning feeling renewed, I approached my life differently, the full time job I have pays well and it’s a walk in / walk out job, I live on a beautiful yacht, I have a wonderful partner, family and friends, I also have a great lifestyle and I am not paying anybody else’s mortgage and I am debt free.

So today Saturday I cleaned my fridge out, and you should see it now, everything is in order, I have made room for new things to be put in there – very similar to my mind set – and whilst life gets cluttered, you learn from the mess, reflect on life and move forward to a better you.

So here I sit, writing another post for Wealthy Affiliate, I have done my next lot of training and listened to Let’s SEO a Blog Post LIVE!