I had been self employed house painter for over 35 yrs. I had been taught to work hard and you will have great life. I worked hard and accumulated material things but my life seemed very unsatisfying most time cause i was very tired and never earned what I wanted after all the years and my life seemed incomplete, something was missing.
Seems i never had a life cause if i didn't work I didn't make money, I saw many family's go on vacations with family while i stayed to grind stone in hopes of next year it be better. After years of being good to customers and having good relationship with them and filling pockets of others that did literally nothing but hold my fate in there hands and make money off my blood sweat and tears.
I figured there's got to be better way, i was bound to not use computer as ignorant as that was, i realized I was not growing i had missed important years of my life do to my low esteem and lack of confidence.
I began reading books to improve myself and was fortunate to meet up in classes for conscious living instead of living life unconsciously and not wanting to grow or try to.
The pain got so much i couldn't take any more i knew i had to get uncomfortable to be comfortable with self and to really learn to love and respect myself.
Since I was un skilled with computer i searched young women to help me because i felt they knew computers and to keep me company since i hated being alone. I was takin advantage of when i sent money countless times for them to come to work together for better future. I bought programs so when i knew how to use computer i could do them but they sat and got out dated.
Since then I had meet someone out of blue that needed work as much as i needed help and we worked together very well, but she found her niche in her life and has moved on but helps on occasion when she has time.
I am more open then in past and gaining on self esteem and confidence and becoming more comfortable with self and happy to be part of this world that dreams do come true if you believe and preserver through troubled times.
I look forward to meeting new friends and to have much better life here on through the results an efforts online and to do my part to help others find there way if they so desire.
i am so grateful for the opportunity to expand and become person i always wanted to be down deep inside and to have life of less worry's and financial freedom.
Most of all that I am secure with myself and know that life is what you make of it.