Illness, Depression and me.

You know when something feels so good you just want to grab it with both hands and nurture the living daylights out of it. That's how i feel about my opportunity with WA, but i just don't sleep some times for days on end and then i can't keep my eye's open for a day or so, sleep pattern is all over the place.

I had an idea around this for a niche, maybe i'll do it later, i know i should be on with my books for children as my first niche, the thing is i'm really still learning about all that publishing stuff and writing to a degree so i'm not really sure how to make it valuable.

My main problem is the constant pain from my back, Degenerative osteoarthritis is as it say's on the tin, Osteoarthritis, which is a crystalizing in between the bones, i'm told, and being degnerative, It's only going to get worse. Believe me when i say, some day's it's like having a hot poker thrusting between the joints in my spine, absolutely excruciatingly painful 24/7. Do you ever have a day when you know exactly what you need to do and you know it's what you should do, but that headache or something is just preventing you from all the ability in the world and for some strange reason you just haven't got the energy to get off your back side and go to work. If this sounds like an excuse, it's not. I know where i want to go and now i have a way to do it, but apart from all the learning and studying, there is pain and depression and finally ME.