I can't even.(Warning Personal Blog)
I have had a bad year and I need to write so we will see what this becomes.
First, I spent the week in the hospital with my son. Went in for an appointment ended up in the ER and then we were admitted to the hospital. It got scary but the end result is that he is fine and home now.
During this time I got a terrible phone call. My grandmother had started to go down hill and was given the final time limit of 2 weeks, maybe.
As I said we made it home from the hospital late thursday night. Slept in our own beds for the first time since Monday.
I woke up with the worst message I think I have ever received.
My grandmother, my best friend in the whole world, had passed early Friday morning.
I am devastated. I feel like I can't breathe. I am in and out of shock. I cry some but I don't want to cry. I am completely helpless.
I am not ready to accept this.
I managed to get out of the house today and kept myself distracted, but now I am home. All is quiet. Everyone is asleep and my mind is left to wonder.
I wish I could work and keep busy but when I sit down to write....nothing....
Even these few words feel like heavy thunder as I type.
I really don't even know where or what to focus on
You may or may not know, that we lost my husbands grandmother in December and his mom in February.
Our loss this year is staggering.
I won't even go in to the other stuff that has happened as I blogged about it some earlier in the year..I think. I am too lazy to go look at the moment.
No this is not about business. Sorry.
Though that is a whole other article.
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So sorry for your loss and for your very bad year. Yes, it is about business, because at times life gets in the way of business. Then we have to find a way to realign our lives with our goals and desires. Until we can get our own selves sorted out, the business might have to take a back seat. However, it's part of dealing with your forward movement and your choice as to where to go next. Your own personal issues must be resolved for your business to go smoothly.
Take you time; figure it all out; look for ways to lessen your grief. Don't feel that your own pain does not deserve to be resolved. In order for your business to run smoothly, you must get your life on an even keel. Then you can move forward again.
Take solace in friends and family. Find ways to channel your grieving into something healing. I hope you will find relief and peace.
So sorry for your losses, Brie! I lost my Grandmother, who had raised me for the first five years of my life back in 2010 during the winter. Every time I spot a cardinal nearby, I have peace, because I believe that is my dear Grandmother visiting me briefly
Hang in there, my friend! We can be stronger than we think, but it is definitely a process!
Jeff🙏🙏🙏
I am sorry for your losses and your son's illness.
You need time to recover. You have had a very stressful time. It is okay to give yourself time to grieve and get over the stress of it all.
Allow yourself to remember those you have lost and find all the good memories you can.
Don't try to force the writing until you are ready.
My heart goes out to you, Sister. Thanks for sharing this- they say an action like this in such times can be quite therapeutic. Thank God WA allows us to share both personal and business posts on our journeys to succeeding online
Hang in there- be strong!!!
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Be kind and gentle to yourself. You've gone through so much in such a short period of time! Just focusing on breathing, making it to the next minute, spending time with your son. Take time to reflect on all the positive memories you have of your grandmother; in fact, write them down, then when you read them she'll be back alive in your heart. Don't judge yourself about what you feel like doing; when my Dad passed away, my Mom wanted to play the slot machines for a few hours - it was mindless and gave her a break from the world. I couldn't tell you if she won or lost, but I do know she had a grown-up time out that was desperately needed.
Oh yeah, and you're not lazy, you're overwhelmed. And that's perfectly okay. Be nice to you!
So sorry for your loss,
Jeannine