Balancing
So I feel a bit like I am walking on a tight rope. I joined about a month ago and I was really motivated, dedicated, and excited about it. I'm still excited about the possibilities I can see here, but finding the time to dedicate to this endeavor is really hard. My kids are very demanding, and they should be, they are 3 yrs and 7 months, but it's making this really hard. I could do things when my youngest naps, but that would mean ignoring my oldest who doesn't nap anymore. I could work on it in the evenings after the kids go to bed, but that would mean ignoring my husband. The last option is to get up before my kids so I can have some quiet/alone time. Unfortunately, my son keeps waking up earlier and earlier so I'd have to wake up at like 5 am to even get an hour.
Trying to squeeze this in on top of being a wife and mother is not working out as well as I'd hoped. I'm finding it very hard to find a good balance between everything and keep everyone happy, including myself. I've contemplated just postponing all this until my kids are in school and I have more time, but by then we will just be more poor and I may have to get an actual job...plus my son is just 7 months, so I've got like 4 years until he will be in school. I keep thinking that I need to get this all started now so that hopefully in 4 years I will have this all figured out and be earning some decent money. If I don't start now, I feel like I'll forget about this opportunity and miss out. My daughter will start pre-K in the fall so I'm thinking maybe I should stay in this and I'll have some extra time while she's gone during the day and my son naps. It won't be a lot of time, but it should be more than I have now.
Anyway, clearly I'm doing a whole lot of thinking and not a whole lot of "doing" right now. I feel confused and stressed out right now. There probably isn't any real "fix" to my problem, but writing it all out helps me feel a little better about it. Hopefully I'll figure out something, at least temporarily that will help me. I can't ignore my kids and I don't want to. They are only young once and I don't want to miss all of it or spend it angry and stressed. I don't want to look back and regret this time. I also don't want to sit and do nothing now and regret it later because I could have money coming in to help us out financially. We are living paycheck to paycheck and not quite making ends meet so if I could help out even a little bit it would be amazing! I don't want to go back to work and even if I did, I'd probably have to spend most of what I earned on daycare so it doesn't really seem worth it. Oh well, here's to hopefully figuring out some way to get everything working together!
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Hi There: Empathy is extended I've been where you are. No doubt, your kids are your #1 priority right now. Try not to stress yourself, instead, prioritize your immediate needs today. How about babysitting someone else's kid and get paid while taking care of your own as well. Only a suggestion! Take care & very best wishes.
That is very difficult. Like keeper said, keep your priorities straight, which from the sounds of it, you are. It may be slow going, but just work on it when you can.
Hang in there. You are following the correct path by taking care of your children. You will eventually will find the balance you need. Above all, keep your priorities straight, and keep at it. There are a lot of us trying to find that perfect balance. Best of luck to you, and looking forward to your success.
Thanks for your honesty in this post. Wishing you the best as you move forward!