The longest Journey In My Life

Hello to you all, I thought I would just say hello as I have not said much for a while

Well I am still here and my mental health has been a struggle again but I am starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel

I live with constant pain, ringing and deafness in my left ear and face as the blood vessels in my ear are swollen due to the massive stress I have endured with PTSD, its hard to sleep as its with me 24 hour a day I hope it will calm down over time as I have worked very hard on my PTSD

I finished my EMDR specialist therapy some time ago and it has been very beneficial but it also uncovers you and I have been through some terrible anxiety and depression but I think I am over the worst of it

I am now starting to get more good days than bad so I think that is a sign I am on the mend

Most of my bad dreams are over now although I still get them now and again, mental health is so hard and a lot or people don't understand it

I count myself very lucky as I am in Alcoholics Anonymous and have a sponsor, he has become invaluable to me and he has been there for me for over 19 years

I am able to talk to him when ever I need to and he listens without judgment or interruption he is a god send

I have grown stronger over the years as I have had to overcome some massive hurdles and I have been sober continuously for 19 and a half years. I never imagined recovery could be so hard but it has shaped me into who I am today

I have discovered that the greatest asset I have is just being honest with my self and other people I always tell my sponsor exactly what I am feeling and I never run away from anything

I still have intentions to continue to build my online business and I never stop learning on WA

I wish you all much success going forward

Barry