Terrified of Feedback

bynetgeek64

175 followers

7 years ago

Yikes! Now I've done it. I've submitted feedback. That was the easy part. The last step of the training, though, was to request feedback. I feel so vulnerable and naked. I have always loved to write. I made up romantic back stories for everyone I came into contact with. I was 15 years old, of course, so everything was love and roses and swooning and hearts and flowers and elaborate marriage proposals. I knew nothing except that I was an idealist. The sands of time have worn my sharp edges a little smoother. Nothing is as black and white as it was in my youth but I never wanted anyone else to read my stories. I felt like they became "less" by being viewed by strangers.

I have blogged in previous times though. I've enjoyed it simply because I only shared my content with those closest to me - like 5000 of my closest friends on Facebook. ;-) To me it feels a little bit like "cold-calling" in sales or going door to door like when I was an Avon lady. But pushing my boundaries and stepping outside of my comfort zone is also liberating. I put myself out there and I try not to take anything personally. We'll see how that goes.

I still love to write. I won't stop. And I will take the constructive criticism offered because it's necessary for growth and wealth and longevity in the online world. I'm not too proud to admit that I feel like a fraud every time I put myself on display but it must be done - for growth, for satisfaction, for peace of mind. So here I go. Ready or not!