Ahhhhhh to be back

byMrsNLynah

419 followers

9 years ago

I've been gone for a while. I see my last post was in June.

It's been a very busy two months. With the birth of a new grandchild, the losing of a family friend, a daughter-in-law in and out of the hospital and dwindling finances. I often times felt like there wasn't enough air for me to breath.

I have to honestly say that I allowed myself to get into a funk, it didn't creep up on me, it didn't find me, it didn't come and set up residence by surprise. I opened the door and allowed it in. I allowed it to pull up a seat and have coffee with me.

We sat for a while, feeling sorry for ourselves and wallowing in self pity. Then one day we decided that we were going to go back to work for Corporate America because this working for ourselves wasn't cutting it. Success had taken a residence with everyone but us!!

Well that bombed as well. Bombed miserably on my first 3 interviews and decided that I wasn't trying that again. It was too time consuming, too hurtful, too disappointing, so depression and I sat back at the table and drank coffee and ate!

We didn't open emails, very rarely visited our facebook pages, definitely didn't open up WA. Husband did his best to talk with me about "My Depressed Mood", but I poo-pooed him away saying I wasn't the least bit depressed.

Took the Grandchildren to the beach, enjoyed myself. Truly did enjoy myself and then when I got in the car to go back home, Depression took the passenger seat and we continued our conversation.

Tried talking with God and praying, but Depression held my hand and told me I didn't need anything but her.

Then today while sitting here wondering where to start, I opened my emails and discovered that I had over 1,500 from WA alone. I knew that I had to let my friend Depression go home.

No more no more wallowing in self pity. The time had come. I had to remember to....

and that Depression did not belong on my team!! So I'm back and ready to rock and roll. Although the amount of emails seem daunting and I have so much updating to do on my website, I'm back!!