One of the best things about owning a blog is the flexibility you have in working on it. You can write when you want, and not write when you don't feel capable of doing so. Your blog will still be there when you are ready again.

As far as the grief process, it takes about three year to fully function after this type of loss. I've lost both of my parents, both my in-laws - in fact, there's only one uncle left on my husband's side to represent that entire generation. Be nice to yourself. Cut yourself some slack and give yourself some time to just reflect and remember. It's a huge loss and deserves that time. Hang in there!

Hi Melissa,

My condolences on the loss of your mother. I understand the pain for sure as I've lost most everyone from my parents generation.

There aren't any words that can take the sting away, as we all walk alone with our burdens and blessings.

While not mastering it, years ago I had the epiphany that if we can't in these times of sadness somehow manifest a thankful gratitude for the many wonderful memories and experiences we share with others we love and lose, it was all for naught.

That somehow we disrespect both them and ourselves by not figuring out that bridge to rejoicing more than the grief that would swallow us.

I must confess I still haven't created that bridge perfectly, my closest loss being my dad. If I dwell to much on him the pangs of longing well up. But I also know alongside that I'm so thankful for all those small moments that were so huge to me, moments that to outside eyes would look insignificant for the most part.

I hope that as today progresses you can find a way through your grief to remember those small moments with gratitude, and send her your thanks for all those times she was not only your shelter but true friend. And honor her by knowing she lives on through you, as you carry the best of her inside of you as she spent her energy planting those seeds all of those years.

Regards,

Jason

I know how you feel, Melissa. I lost my second wife to cancer. Our loved ones still reside in our hearts. We are still in this game called life, and those loved ones of ours would want us to continue the journey! Just my two cents! Take care!

Jeff🙏

One way of dealing with it, Melissa, I think, would be to concentrate on the positive and happy times you had with your Mom. Also, if I were you, I would talk to her about my hopes and dreams for my new online business. Imagine what she would want for you. It would not be depression. I'm sure she'd want you to get your focus back and move onward towards success. Best wishes, Jenni.

Thinking of you Melissa. Days like this can be even more painful. Wishing you a sense of peace and hope for the strength to grow through the difficult times.
Take care.
Tracy