Now that I'm over my feeling of guilt, I can apply myself to this... I've been a member since Jan 2 2014, and am just now uploading to premium. I wonder where I could've been today. I was holding myself back, I was in the mindset of "If I have to pay for it then I don't want to do it"...... Here I am in February 2015 and I guess something in me changed... I matured.... I was ready to come back a long time ago... but the feeling of guilt of leaving the community made me nervous........ But then